Yesterday was the worst (meet). I did awful in the long jump. horrible. i usually jump like 13'9 or 14, yesterday my best jump was 11'10? it was...disgusting.then the 100, yea i should have just shot myself. i got friggin like.... 13.8. i dont even think i placed. then the 300H...wow. i got 52.54...and i thought the lady said 52.24, which meant i ( Read more... )

ahh. yea i havent really been allowed online because "my priority is cleaning out my room" cuz were moving in like 2 weeks? yea awesome kinda. i guess the benefits are the either 50 or 64 inch tv, the 27 or 32 flat screen in my room and the flat screen new computer. but those cant really make up for EVERYTHING. ahh, saturday was a kinda bad meet. i ( Read more... )

Things are kinda weird lately. Somedays are so good, and some are just so bad. Some days i have a bunch of friends, some days i have none. its kinda werid. ups and down i guess. i guess you cant have the downs without the ups or the ups without the downs right?

Track went well on tuesday. got first in the 200 (29.4), long jump(14 ft), 300H (54.1) ( Read more... )

fuck. i lost my last entry. well the gist is that im sorry matt for ruining your life and i miss my grandpa because today is the one week anniversary of when he died. so yea. but otherwise florida is nice and miss home but i dont want to go home at all. i dont have anything to look foward to except seeing my mom ( Read more... )

wow. yesterday was interesting. my mom was picking me up from track practice and she got out of the car, sunglasses on, lips tightly pressed together, i knew what she was going to say. my grandpa died. for the first 30 mins i just kept denying it. i didnt actually start crying until she told me how my grandma went to his bed side and held his hand ( Read more... )

Yea. Saturday wasnt bad (the meet) I got 5th in the 200 with a time of 28.8 and 4th in the long jump. i was very suprised. we have a meet today and im trying out the 300 hurdles! ahh oh dear. yea im in school. what a rebel. ah man, soccer was perfect last night. it was so beautiful. we played from like 6-8 when the sun was going down but there was ( Read more... )

Really.never go to the CCU...critical care unit. not to see someone you love. ill give you a hint, ive honestly cried at 1 out of the 9 funerals ive been to and never when ive gone to a hospital, but i cried tonight. my grandpa kept squeezing my hand. i couldnt help but cry. he was basically unconscious. what else can you do though, his brain is ( Read more... )

Yeaaa....im start class. working WICKED hard. hah...yea right. im doing this and playing a game on PBS kids .com....berenstein bears. yea. what now. mmm...celtics game was fun last night. 15th row. yea. sorry jeff :\. on the way home we found out my grandpa had a bad stroke :\. second person...first my uncle, now my grandpa. it sucks cuz me and my ( Read more... )

I dont know what to say. you think i dont know. i do. i know it mor than anything. you think i like being me? no. i hate who iam quite frankly. i love everyone and everythingelse inthis world more than i love myself. and i dont have any confidence? do you wonder? its because of people like you. i dont mean to do the things i do. everyone makes ( Read more... )

Saturday was a blast and a half. i hung out with my jodi. we went to a movie in hopes of seeing my stud phil, but he didnt show. so we left the movie an hour early and wandered the lovely streetsof exeter. "hey ladies!" "yea hoes!" "hey girls!" "yea baby" and the flicking of a lighter is what was yelled at us from windows. haha. its all cuz of my ( Read more... )