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[_rainbow_tears_]

Enough is enough--for good. As hard as it is, I have to admit to myself that I deserve better. I deserve better than being treated like shit, I deserve better than being manipulated, I deserve better than being the girlfriend of a pathological liar. I deserve better than her and what she's capable of giving. I love her so much it hurts. I've tried

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[jayli]

*HUGS*
Girl - I am glad you are seeing, or trying to see how much better you deserve! Good for you for putting yourself, your feelings, and your heart first! Sometimes - "being selfish" isn't really being selfish. That your own basic human needs being met are not asking for too much....and asking that your partner is loyal, truthful, and caring is nothing more than a basic human need.
I'm proud of you for taking care of YOU!

[_rainbow_tears_]

I just wish it was easier...

it hurts like hell, Jackie.

[jayli]

I know...and I can't say that it will get easier any time soon...but eventually...one day, it won't hurt as badly...
lean on us till you are able to stand on your own darlin...

[_rainbow_tears_]

It feels like I've got no one to lean on.

[thefunera1party]

I'm so proud of you. It's going to be tough - you can probably tell already from how painful this is. But deep down, even though you never wanted it to be true, this is the best.

[_rainbow_tears_]

Thank you. Yeah, it's tougher than I had ever imagined, and I hate it. I know it will be the best in the long run, but it doesn't feel like it right now.

[freki_cowgirl]

suonds like that was coming long ago...you do deserve someone better, someone who can care about you and deserve you, love.

[_rainbow_tears_]

I'm beginning to realize this...sort of. Some days. Heh.

[freki_cowgirl]

*gasp* you doubt? you definitely deseerve someone better than her...you're worth a million of her...then we'd have to make her worth one...um, i'll give her worth one half and make your worth 2 million of hers, how's that? i'd go more mathy, but until i get a job my mind's on break and i don't wake till noon. that's noon...when the big hand and the little hand hit the 12. ;)

[_rainbow_tears_]

;-) You make me smile....so much.

wow

[sexymdstud06]

that was really emotional and full of pain and hurt...i feel sorry for your gurlfriend cause she is about to loose someone special...you seem pretty damn cool...i wish your girlfriend would see that in you....its ok though.. i know that you will finfd someone who loves you for who you are and doesnot judge you and is there for you through the good and the bad times...but ummm just hit me up...i just stopped by ur page to show u some love so holla at me and i added you so add me ok holla

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[_rainbow_tears_]

hey there ;-) new friends are awesome. nice to meet ya!

Re: wow

[sexymdstud06]

you too...so tell me alittle abot you...me i like all gurls doesn't really matter must have a good personality and i also playing basketball its my life and i als love music thats my life and i love supporting gay rights....thats me ur turn

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[_rainbow_tears_]

lol hmmm...i'm not good at summarizing myself, but here goes nothing...i like all women, save high-maintenance femmes. i am particularly fond of soft butches and butches but as cliche as it sounds, i go for personality and heart more than looks. i love throwing shot and disc, but i can't anymore because i slipped a few discs in my back and had surgery. i love music too...rock, r&b, country...a little of everything. as you can tell by my entry, i just had my heart broken--again. i'm so easygoing it's annoying sometimes. i worry alot but i've learned to just let things come as they will. i love, love, love humor and i don't think i could live without it. and i HATE lies.

heh. yeah, that's me in a nutshell. pretty boring, i might sasy.

[mollsadoll]

kristi my dear-
i hope you are doing ok. this must suck for you. i can't wait to come home so we can hang out and catch up because i miss you! hang in there hon.

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Molly, my love--
How's Germany? I'm so jealous...you're going to come back with a Deutsche accent, and I'm stuck here with my tacky American-German once. Heh.
Hope you're having fun though...