I almost let the monster out ( Read more... )

This is my malfunction. I am angry. I HAVE NO TIME TO EXPRESS MY ANGER IN ANY WAY SHAPE OR FORM ( Read more... )

I have come to realize I am clinically depressed.

Great. Now maybe I can get on with my life?

2006 was... in a very unfortunate sense of the word "unforgettable." A year which started out with the best of intentions, plans, dreams, goals, and general change which indeed started out very well, but then almost exactly 6 months to the very day, the year began to lose altitude and eventually crashed very violently into a cesspool of shattered ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder what it is that is wrong with my brain. I say things people apparently don't hear, I don't say things I know in my mind it feels and seems to me that I've said, I hear things people don't, I don't hear things others do ( Read more... )

Almost a month since my last post and still no job. I want to die.

We have moved to a town called Brownsburg on the outskirts of Indianapolis. It is a very nice 2 bedroom apartment with plenty of room. We like it ( Read more... )

I am a man whose potential is quickly tiring of being wasted. I have a writing ability that has recently landed two letters to the editor in the local paper and garnered some local attention. Is it profitable? Of course not ( Read more... )

So I've been helping a friend of a friend all week, including last weekend, for $8.00 per hour. The pay is awful, I am doing computer/general electronics work around the house that should be costing this man at least $500/day, and my wife, ever-supportive, thinks this is one giant opportunity... to waste my time. She does not believe in what I am ( Read more... )

I am a man ruled by fear. Fear of the unknown. Fear of losing the illusion of control. Fear that an unseen asteroid will hit the Earth at any moment. Fear that my 91 year old grandfather will die at any moment. Fear that my writing ability will never amount to anything more than LiveJournal posts. Fear that my wife will finally tire of my excuses, ( Read more... )