It always surprises me how much impact RL and the people around us can have on us and how hard it is to break the habits we form at an early age.
Congratulations on your achievement - it must have taken a lot of hard work :o)
I too am a extrovert trapped inside of an introvert-frame and want to shout and whisper at the same time. It can be conflicting at times, but gets better by the year and people I have gotten to know in the past two years have a hard time believing that I am introverted and shy while people I knew when I was child/teenager seem to have a hard time believing that I can speak at all or have opinions.
I'd like to read nasty_bugger123's LJ - sounds like it'd be fun ;o)
Shout and whisper at the same time, that's a brilliant way of describing it. Viskningar och rop. And it *is* a conflict, I know exactly what you mean. Guess it's been easier for me though, simply because I don't have anyone around from the old days to remind me of what I used to be. When I come across those people I tend to shy away, because they remind me of all the crap I've been through - I guess that's something I gotta face sooner or later. Yay. :p Next friday I'm going up north, to the town I used to live in up to eleven years ago. Will be interesting. Been thinking seeking people out then, confront my fears so to speak.
nasty_bugger could also be a writing journal. *ponders*
It's good not to be alone in feeling this way - I sometimes feel schizophrenic wanting to be two types of people at once.
I don't keep in touch with anybody from the old days either, but I still live close to where I grew up and Reykjavík is tiny so I occasionally meet those people and it's ok although I shy away from all reunions. I'm afraid that meeting the whole group would put me into my old self while meeting only a couple of people allows me to be mostly me.
I think you should seek them out - I guess it'll be hard at first but it'll be worth it afterwards.
I think nasty_bugger needs a life, whichever way it is ;o)
That's interesting - I always thought that shy and introverted people tend to exhibit a more "loud", extroverted side on the net, not the other way around.
But anyway, it sounds like you're being more of yourself in RL, and that can only be a good thing. :)
Not that big a fan of dark and brooding anymore, though. Have finally accepted my attraction toward the bright and cheerful. Or maybe not. *ponders* Hmm, let me write a fifteen page essay on that and get back to you - I'm sure you're *dying* to read it. (Okay, irony is prehaps not my thing.)
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Congratulations on your achievement - it must have taken a lot of hard work :o)
I too am a extrovert trapped inside of an introvert-frame and want to shout and whisper at the same time. It can be conflicting at times, but gets better by the year and people I have gotten to know in the past two years have a hard time believing that I am introverted and shy while people I knew when I was child/teenager seem to have a hard time believing that I can speak at all or have opinions.
I'd like to read nasty_bugger123's LJ - sounds like it'd be fun ;o)
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Guess it's been easier for me though, simply because I don't have anyone around from the old days to remind me of what I used to be. When I come across those people I tend to shy away, because they remind me of all the crap I've been through - I guess that's something I gotta face sooner or later. Yay. :p Next friday I'm going up north, to the town I used to live in up to eleven years ago. Will be interesting. Been thinking seeking people out then, confront my fears so to speak.
nasty_bugger could also be a writing journal. *ponders*
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It's good not to be alone in feeling this way - I sometimes feel schizophrenic wanting to be two types of people at once.
I don't keep in touch with anybody from the old days either, but I still live close to where I grew up and Reykjavík is tiny so I occasionally meet those people and it's ok although I shy away from all reunions. I'm afraid that meeting the whole group would put me into my old self while meeting only a couple of people allows me to be mostly me.
I think you should seek them out - I guess it'll be hard at first but it'll be worth it afterwards.
I think nasty_bugger needs a life, whichever way it is ;o)
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But anyway, it sounds like you're being more of yourself in RL, and that can only be a good thing. :)
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Quote Monty Python: "I'm not!"
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How ya doin', kitten? :)
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Never been better :) You?
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Not that big a fan of dark and brooding anymore, though. Have finally accepted my attraction toward the bright and cheerful. Or maybe not. *ponders* Hmm, let me write a fifteen page essay on that and get back to you - I'm sure you're *dying* to read it.
(Okay, irony is prehaps not my thing.)
Mika! *gives a big bear hug*
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