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WARNING: I am confusing myself by typing this, therefore if you so choose to read it at your own risk, be my guest.
everything about you is so right, yet so wrong. i don't know what to do, i want to just jump in head first and love you with all of my heart; and i know i could, that's not the problem. it is just that something inside of me is pinching me saying "don't do it! you will regret everything about this!" aaah! i can't help but think what if, what if i just did it. what if i went for everything i've ever wanted and it all came true. and then that little pinchy bug comes back to say yeah but what if you get your heart broken. again. and i don't want that to happen, i've been through so much already, most of which whoever's reading this won't know about. i really want everything to be right again and i think that if i make this decision it will. i hope it does. i've forgotten what it's like to feel loved. =\
but. in other words. tomorrow will be awesome! amanda k. is coming over for a little while before we head over to dalila's birthday party! can't wait that will be soooo much fun! love you lila!
well. thats about it. i'll wrap this up. ((any questions about the LJ-cut, just ask, don't make assumptions please!))
kloveyabye!