i have three weeks left of break and all i want to do is paint.
and sleep.
and take pictures.
and draw.
and find a new job.
and do something new with someone(s) new.

im tired of dumb, selfish, stubborn, arrogant, unthankful, rude people.
no more of them.

i figure this year i better make sure im happy with myself.

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last night danny melissa and i talked about how hard it is to find good friends, and how important it is to have them. that night i realized that i practically no true friends to speak of, but perhaps 4, but now its looking like 3. yeah, i may have pushed some people way, due to the fact that people i have truly valued and loved in the past have ( Read more... )

two years yesterday ( Read more... )

today i realized how unhappy i am.

thank you.

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i didnt even get to touch it and now its gone.
it ran up my dashboard and got lost.
we took the whole dash apart and couldnt find it.

lyle bought me a hamster today.
its in the car.
somewhere.
i hope its not dead.
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im really mad right now.
im not happy with anything in my life at all.
everythings falling apart.
my relationship with lyles slipping. i feel like its not gonna get better.
my family is a mess.
schools beyond stressful.
i hate work and everytime i go in there i want to shoot myself.

nows the time i need friends but i really dont have any anymore because i ( Read more... )

i have to buy:
+a new printer
+a laptop
+a sketchpad
+84237 sharpies
+rubber cement pickup
+a new coat
+a "professional" wardrobe
+a ipod transmiter

plus i need to get my hair done reallllly bad and get tattood like i was suppose to 6 months ago

i really need to work more/get a better job.
art school's fucking expensive and my mom hasnt gotten a paycheck ( Read more... )

fuck dude, school has taken up all of my time. 
all i do is go to school, do homework, and work.

and its too bad that im still expected to pretty much do everything in terms of keeping a relationship together.
still feeling unappricated, unnoticed, and umm.. dead LAST. thanks.

no social life and no crocidile hunter

life fucking sucks.