I really fucking miss it when all my friends could have fun being sober.
could go their whole lives without smoking a cigarette
when good company was all you needed
now i'm surrounded by people with heroine problems and blackened lungs.
FUCK.seriously.

 can't eat
can't talk without being in a great deal of pain
can't even swallow my own saliva
and worst of all...can't dance for a long time
FUCK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUU tonsilitis/ mono?
the doctor will call and tell me what i have today
:(

since i have so many senior friends it feels like i am graduating with them :(
but i am nottttttttttttttttt sadly
one more year at thousand oaks highschool
oh boy.
I want a change : /

Happy happy happy.
23 days of junior year left!

I woke up this morning with throbbing, swollen feet.
oh may concert, you slay me.

 If there's one thing I hate, it's people who are always pissed off.
or sad
or angry
you cannot let your past or the bad shit control your life, and I know sooo many people that let that happen.
BE HAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPY!

Today  was a good day ( Read more... )

I love  everything and everyone on this planet.

It was an open casket.
He looked plastic.
I've never cried or shaken so hard in my entire life than when i saw him lying there.
I expected him to open his eyes. 
This whole thing is so unreal.

I have the most  beautiful, amazing group of friends in the world ( Read more... )