so yesterday was my party. I had to wake up at 9 am... wicked gay. got up showered.. put on some clothes and started decorating and making food. I usually like decorating but for some reason yesterday.. it was pissing me off. so I gave up. dad finished the decorations.. bluhbluhbluh. people came.. we ate aloooot of food. seriously i felt soo fat by ( Read more... )

so wednesday was a weirdo day: I woke up and sat outside in tehe pool.. ya know tanning. thinking about shit.. mainly on how uncomfortable the floatie I was on was.. and contimplating a way to tanning my back with out falling in the water. oh well I got out of the pool, and went in the shower.. started thinking about how me and my cousin, melinda ( Read more... )

yea.. so yesterday.. I Def woke up at 630 in the morning for no god damn reason. I twas very upsetting to my life.. esp bc I dont get up that early. at round 12 I forced myself back to sleep. and woke up around 230. I got dressed and cleaned my room, than my mom came home. Went over adams for a lil while. we got some icecream inwhich mine fell on ( Read more... )

yesterday I slept till 2.. got up and went to ryan's graduation party... then I left around 730ish and found nothing to do at home.. so I slept. And guess what time I woke up at... 6:30... how amazing is that... I love having nothing to do .... NOT! lol ok thats it

yea so I came back from the cape today... Cape was such a great time. I enjoyed every minuite ofit.. well maybe except that time me and chan almost got raped in teh stop and shop parking lot.. and when I woke up to find only a half a loaf of bread .. haha but I think the rest of it was good! as everyone knew my goal for the cape was to give brit a ( Read more... )

ok so after graduation rehersals the girsl came over and we talked about cape shit..than they left and I ran some errands.. and then I went to ben's match against jay q. he lost.. its ok tho.. they played a good game!even tho I dont undrestand tennis at all. then I went shopping w/ my mom to find a dress for graduation.. found it then I came home ( Read more... )

thinking alot lately.. mainly about my life.. and its kinda depressing ( Read more... )

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the before entries were to people, I did write about my weekend but as I was saving it the phone rang. so instead of writing another one.. I will just say some of this weeked I hope to forget. and the rest I will just share w/ the people that were there. ~ps ben doenst masterbate... given fact oh and I have been craying for this whole weekend .. ( Read more... )

I am sorry you got into the middle of all this, and I'm sory I gave you my number that day. I really didliek you, bc if I said i didnt, that would be a lie. I guess after you told me things between us were over, and you were getting back w/ your ex I kinda thought about how I thought I was getting exactly whatI wanted, a great guy, that liked me ( Read more... )