went to sleep in tears, woke up in them, too. my grandfather died yesterday morning and i must say, it was rough. i feel like this week has been an emotional rollercoaster. hadn't really seen josh all week due to everything going on. go to his house last night looking for some sort of comfort; all i got was a couple grav hits and the "i dont know ( Read more... )

staying positive, weeding out the negatives, bittersweet visits in 15 minute increments, quality time with the cutest girl in the world, keeping my mind off the inevitable, missing every little thing about my best friends who are too far away right now, watching too many movies in my dungeon of a room, appreciating my parents for everything that ( Read more... )

finally got to see josh this morning. not even gonna lie, it hurts. and i cant even imagine how it feels for him...on the other side of the glass. i'll always care ( Read more... )

i cant think or see straight at all, and the thing is im sober.

im awake, its morning.

what the hell even happened last year? if i had any intentions of looking back i may look into that question a little more. . .

i have no one to blame but myself, but sometime it just hurts.

last night i said i needed to figure out whats real and whats right. the fact of the matter is, you were real to me.

leave it to me to put off every bit of my christmas shopping until the week of; lets just hope i make some money this weekend ( Read more... )

its a strange feeling to reflect on where you've been, where you're at now, and where you're going to go.
the people you've come across, the things you've seen; life is silly.

and im like ----- that far from breaking.
the thing is, i wont be broken.

SERIOUSLY? come home from work the other night and find out my brand new pup got out and got hit by a semi-truck. two dogs in 8 days. and i was so attached already...

why do these things happen?

oh and all my friends left for new orleans at like midniht last night. first time ever that i declined a spur of the moment trip like that. im

i understand this is all part of life, but my gosh, it hits hard sometimes. my health is an issue right now, fiona is dead, and nothing is certain. all i can really do right now is think about how i have no idea what to even think about, listen to endless amounts of death cab, and sip on my chili from wendy's (that doesnt even have cheese, wtf ( Read more... )