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[_seraphima_]

I quit group therapy. I told myself that if/when Denise said she couldn't help me, I'd be fine. I wouldn't feel rejected and useless. And to be honest, I don't think that I really  feel that way. I think her incompetence frustrated me. And I figured if idiots were running the program, it's clearly not going to bring about the results I need. I

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[runaway___]

I don't know why recovery groups make me angry. Don't take offense to this, but the whole "give yourself over to God and accept that you can't change yourself" makes me upset. I think that people need to look within themselves for change, and we need to teach them that relying on themselves, and not a made up character in a really bad book, is the best method for self-help. Being dependant on anyone, or anything, is never a good thing (that includes addiction, and it includes religion).

I miss you B. I feel like I want to take you out on a drive and just chat.

[_seraphima_]

I know it sounds adolescent to some people, but I'm a bit busy for God right now. I don't have time to figure out whether or not I believe, and certainly no time to maintain faith.
I wish I were still in town, I don't really know anyone around here well enough to want to spend time with them. Yuck.

B.

[runaway___]

Not adolescent at all. Religion eats up a huge amount of time and energy, and the christian God especially likes to eat your time up. Don't listen to me though, I'm incredibly prejudiced against Christianity and I'm particularly bitter right now.
Where are you now?

[_seraphima_]

I live in Ridgefield, about an hour outside of Milford. An hour 15 if you're on the Orange side.

B.

PS It sucks hard here.

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[adonisxxlamia]

POO. It posted it before I was done. YOUR JOURNAL JUST TOLD ME TO SHUT UP VIA NOT LETTING ME FINISH MY COMMENT!!!!!! Anyhoo, HEEEEEEEEEROOOOOO............ call Duo when you are feeling down! Duo doesn't like it when Heero does scary things like this (scary being dissappearing for a while then posting an entry that leaves me like this--->
OoO;;; *thinks*WHAT DID I MISS?!?!

and so YOU MUST CALL ME. Also say hi to Lauren for me.

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[_seraphima_]

Haha. Lauren says hi. She's actually pretty sick. We're going to the sixth doctor's appointment of something tomorrow. They still don't know what's wrong with her, but she's in pain and it sucks. Hopefully the CAT scan will show something helpful.

I know I should call you, but at the same time I just feel so fucked up already. I don't want to mess up whatever good things you have going for you by whining about how sad it makes me when I screw myself over lol

But I appreciate your concern, and I'm sorry to make you worry. But it's okay, I have great bounce-back ability.
SRSLY.

B.

PS

Hn. Quatre destroying a colony was scary. My going on hiatus was just usual. Although it doesn't surprise me that you find the ordinary frightening. *smirk*

Heero.