de eso no se habla

[_seraphima_]

Sometimes all it takes is just one little bit of insight. A photo you don't remember being taken, that exposes you so deeply and completely, you have no choice but to let all pretenses go.

I think now would be a good time for me to stop pretending that I'm a good person. I think I would've made it a lot farther in therapy if I just admitted that

- I

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[runaway___]

i feel like if i had stopped making up stories about my life to talk about with the therapist, i would be in such a better place right now. my whole life is a huge mess up. i am a huge mess up.

[_seraphima_]

I feel the same. I didn't even have the energy to make polite conversation with the good old doctor. I just sat on the couch and stared holes into him. It was bad. But I feel like if I hadn't gotten the chance to mess it up, I would've kept feeling like I was just unaffected. Now at least I know what wrong feels like. *Shrugs*
My life still feels like a huge mess too, but I guess I have to start cleaning up somewhere. Even if it feels impossible. I'll just keep doing it as mindlessly as possible. Maybe that way I won't realize I'm losing a lot of precious coping methods -.-"

Uuugh.

If you ever wanna just bullshit, lemme know.
B.