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i just hope that everything i've ever wished for, everything i've ever fought for, everything i believe in and stand up for is not just sham created by the man with the red dq spoon.
i hope that all my dreams of my career will not have me ending up in a box on the side of the road because i had too high hopes for myself. and i was unable to achieve such things. i hope that everything i've fought for was and will be worthwhile in the end. and everything i believe in and stand up for will not come back and bite me in the rear end. and i hope that, after everything i've been through, i come out of this family - ... - situation a better, stronger, loving, hopeful, caring, successful person. that i havent endured such hard times to end up like anyone in my family. and that i dont end up like either of my parents. because it would be sad to waste another life on someone with a personality or lifestyle similar to either of them.
i dont want to be a waste of a life. a bum at the intersection that makes people roll up their car windows. a person thought of as less than amazing.
because i can't stand to be anything less than amazing. not after all i've worked for, and worked through.
and that is my rant for this week.
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