so today was okay ( Read more... )

well...
things are
superficially fine
but maybe
i am dying inside
and i'm confused
with all the
reflections
of me
i'm seeing

sometimes i'm
disguising
or maybe i'm just
EVOLVINGand then, there's you ( Read more... )

I want somebody who can hold my interest
hold it and never let it fall
someone who can flatten me with a kiss
that hits like a fist
or a sentence, that stops me like a brick wall
oh this is so easy ( Read more... )

i made a list of things to do
this was one of them
i still need
to pack for xc
take a shower
and watch nip/tuck
that last one may not happen
cause no ones showing
signs of sleep

i wrote something really good in my journal today
and it helped me realize
how HIGH my expectations are...
and worry that they're also superhuman.
too bad we can't create ( Read more... )

if it were easy ( Read more... )

i meant
what i said
when i said
sorry

and
i wish you
didn't
love me
this much
i wish you
weren't
torn up
i wish
i hadn't
hurt you
so
bad.
i wish
i could feel
what you did.

and i'm sorry
if fate
didn't favor us.
if emotion
passed away
too fast.
but, baby,
c'est la vie.

i am not
your world.

the course of my life has been
school,
cross country,
school,
school,
eating,
family,
cross country.

my schedules filling up.
YAY.
india day is this weekend.
and whit's sob party on friday.
and then the first soccer game.
and INDIA DAY.
richie and jeff are helping.
YAYY.
lol.
i need to see meri.
call me folksies.

its one of those weekends ( Read more... )

so i'm completely convinced that everything in the world tends toward chaos.
everything.
including akward flirtatious relationships.
that NEVER seem real,
are SWORN to be real,
and then, shortly after finally feeling right,
are endedthank you sam ( Read more... )

shit shit shit shit day ( Read more... )