Comments | _showna_: Tired of being what you want me to be

_showna_

Tired of being what you want me to be

Mar 24, 2004 15:44

After a somewhat good night's sleep, I woke up feeling refreshed in body and not quite as sick. I toyed with the idea of skipping out on school, but I've missed a lot, so opted to drag my sorry self to the classroom. A part of me was glad I went because it did give me something to do, yet the other part was quite miserable because life isn't so ( Read more... )

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ski_bunny_88 March 24 2004, 13:36:27 UTC

Yay Shawna I'm so happy your listening to Linkin Park! Thay so rock!! So ya anyways I think I've found the reason why you're feeling so down and upset..and the answer is.. you've been spending way too much time with Laura and myself! So what do ya think about that! It would explain a lot! Oh don't ya love my journal! Kels is the BEST!

_showna_ March 25 2004, 04:04:30 UTC

Yes, Linkin Park is very good. I haven't heard much of their stuff, but I definitely like Numb. **smirks** Is that a clue you want me to bugger off? ;)

Yes, your journal does rock. Particularly the weed smoking mouse.

ski_bunny_88 March 24 2004, 13:37:45 UTC

your the best too! LOL feel better :)

_showna_ March 25 2004, 04:05:00 UTC

I thought you forgot something in the last bit. **laughs**

ski_bunny_88 March 24 2004, 13:38:36 UTC

you should listen to Where is the Love- By Black Eyed Peas

_showna_ March 25 2004, 04:05:33 UTC

Ugh- yuck! I hate that song. **makes a face**

ladymiranda March 25 2004, 10:07:22 UTC

Haha, perfect icon for that comment.

ski_bunny_88 March 24 2004, 13:39:22 UTC

K, can you tell I'm a little bored? Ha I'm gonna start your note now! Hehe

_showna_ March 25 2004, 04:06:07 UTC

Yay! New note.

And yes, it was a little obvious you were bored.

ladymiranda March 24 2004, 16:28:41 UTC

It's not high school drama, it's real life. High school drama would be if you decided to tell your friends how you were feeling and they decided to dislike you for that reason alone, which I doubt would happen.

Having gone through a sort of similar period of depression (always feeling like I had to smile and keep the family - although in your case, friends - together and happy) it becomes draining on you after a while. And that's when you say fuck it and stop acting the way people have expected you to act and start acting the way you feel. Pretending is a pain in the ass, I don't understand how actors do it. I'm sure you'll be okay. :-*

On another note, "Hey Ya" by Outkast annoys me to an unforseeable end. If I'm not in a mood to go out, already out, or anything of the sort, it puts me in a semi-homicidal state. >:o

_showna_ March 25 2004, 04:09:13 UTC

Well, that is slightly comforting. I've always detested the 'school girl' image and I didn't want to end up sounding like one.

It is draining and I'm still not entirely sure why I do it. My friend situation isn't in trouble- its not as though one single person even has need to hold them in trouble. Today I am vowing to go through the entire day with the look of how I feel on my face, rather than hidden underneath. I'll make it until lunch, I think.

'Hey Ya' makes me suicidal. And naturally my brother is addicted to it. What is it with younger siblings and really stupid, annoying songs?

ladymiranda March 25 2004, 10:00:34 UTC

What is it with younger siblings and really stupid, annoying songs?

Fact of life.