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[_shukaku_]

Godless
They were black;
The spots on his face

..and his chest.

Dreamt Nightmares
Because of the marks

.. had no rest.

I did pray
I made a bargain.

.. before death.

I believe
I do not believe,

.. this my test.

I went home.
I began my wait.

..The phone rang.

I hang it.
I began to cry.

..I am godless.

MoonSweet moon, I hate you

Comments

Alyssa

[mimnock90]

I am fully aware of her past and most likely her future, that is to say what she has told me and I have read from the stars. She has had somethings that I wish on no one... but that is a reasoning I am fast growing out of. She has done nothing but lie, gossip and have pitty partys while you are away. She has many self-distrutive behavors and your caring mother has done nothing to help. She has said she was going to a tharapist but over the spand of 5 weeks she has had one meeting and was very late to it and so it was canceled. Now to adress her safty net. I have seen not heared that your mother is quite willing to dump her off and not call or pick her up with out someone telling her... she is not forgeting to do this but does not show any motherly care for alyssa. My mother had to step in and call and remind your mother more than once... your mother I have been told knew that Andy was doing bad things with alyssa... that she used alyssa in such away to keep live with him... come on she had to have known... a 30 something year old man

[_shukaku_]

To be blunt my mom never knew she, alyssa, was being molested. She only had a suspicion. However my mother could never act upon it until Alyssa couldn't take it anymore and ratted him out. So How would she be using Alyssa to stay there when she didn't know what the hell was going on, quite impossible isn't it?

For all she knew, my mother thought, Andy had his eyes set on older prey.

I'm sorry to report, but nothing can be changed in Alyssa if she has indeed become what you say. Her promises of hope are often as empty as her own mothers.

By the time she finally wakes up, it'll be too late.
For the last person in the world to know who is sick in the head, is the person who is sick themself.

I thank you for trying.

So you Damm your own sister?

[mimnock90]

You seem like you have a good head on your shoulder... but you are one of those "where the wind blows" kinda people... you don't care or don't want to help hiding behind the " I can't I'm up here she's down here." that's sad... there is no hope when it is not looked for... by the way Alyssa told your mother... and tried to make it even more apparent... that's what she told me so... you seem to be out of the loop. Or your little sis is having "One wine fest on our graves" as T.H. White once said. And Alyssa has hinted that this went on for a period of time. Is your sister hell bent for her own death in society or is there hope.... maybe a sisters guidance... or is calling her too much for you who gets on live journal this often as to read and write poems. But is this another sign of the family she has not caring... I rarely cruse... but you are a sulfurous cunt that is boldly displaying her enigmace. In short work of that statement you are a hypocrite to the end of time with no love for your left behind little sister

I do not damn her.

[_shukaku_]

You have no right to call me such a thing

Contact.

[_shukaku_]

For weeks,
I've been trying to contact my mother, but she has no phone where she is currently staying.

My sister, I don't know the phone number where she is staying at either, I can't do detetive work, so it's hard for me to find.

Do you have the number by chance?

[_shukaku_]

My good lord, that sounds just like something my mother would do. A reason why I'm always debating with myself on whether or not to send money. I was Always complaining to her about that and I'm not suprised she's kept to wasting the money she needs so much

[mimnock90]

I am now glad to tell you that I have given up my fight for Alyssa's future and placed it in your hands. I will not be writing anymore to you about Alyssa unless you want me too... as a way of keeping tabs on her.. and to be most prepared to help her... you say there is no power in your voice, when dealing with Alyssa... that is not true at all. If you are as close as sisters there is hope. You must first widdle her for going ons with herself. then softly tell her what is wrong in your mind and what is unsafe. Don't support her party lifestyle with words tell her It very immuture. She is always going for more mature than others. I will still be telling as nicely as I can thats she will turn out a hooker or addict if she continue on this path in life. I will find out where she is living and a phone number. that might take a while though. So plan and live your life for right now.

P.S
By the way I ask you forgive my ........ words but I think they struck the right chord in your heart.

Bye