i miss live journal. i never write in here anymore.

Last night was just amazing. I had so much fun wandering around kirkland neighborhoods in the dark. With all sorts of wonderful friends that i dont deserve to have.

how i got so lucky, i dont know.

<3 heartfaces and hugs <3

im determined not to spend my morning on the net. isnt it a beautiful day? i wish i could share this with you. everything is better when your not slone. dont get me wrong, im doing really well... i just wish you were here :) yes... you. life seems so awful at times, but when i wake up and the sun is streaming through my window i just know it cant ( Read more... )

im so sick of this. i hate doing it all alone sometimes. sometimes i think its just a bad dream, like the one i had a year ago when it first hurt. i just want to wake up and be better. i want to pretend there is nothing wrong... but i cant anymore ( Read more... )

life should always be that simple.

why arent all relationships easy.

so many thoughts and not enough in me to express it all.

im too small.

ill never fit in.

why do i still try.

ouch, life hurts.

how come i dont get to choose how long i sleep for? i dont want to get up at 6 anymore. especially after going to bed at 2. oh im so frusterated.

love and peace to all you sleepyheads.

sometimes id do anything to make it stop. sometimes id do anything to go back. sometimes i would do anything to move forward. but most of the time there is nothing i can do. time is moving forward, so i suppose i am too. but it feels like going nowhere. im numb, and i wish i could stay that way. but soon, it will all come back to me.

who cares? im going to do what i want.

next time remember. if you dont love them they wont love you, and nobody will get hurt.

just pretend it doesnt hurt. just pretend that it all will end. thats all life is anyway right? pretending. i really want to live. but the life i imagine includes people that dont want to be a part of it. and things that i dont want to be a part of my life. wont anybody help me? i hate doing this alone. im not getting anywhere. i need you. i wish ( Read more... )

To all who i have hurt ( Read more... )