you know kt, you've really come a long way, and I truly mean that. do you remember the time where you completely couldn't stand hanging out with me? now, you've accepted me for who I am... and even more so now that you know exactly what I went through with stef. It still hurts when i think about how much she didn't care about tossing me aside for you. it's not easy going from best friends to being dirt in someone's eyes... but that's beside the point. the point i'm trying to make is that no matter where you start, or what you start to get on your way, I know you'll go far. if you can accept people that you used to hate, then you can make friends anywhere in the world.
man i always love reading your entries. they are bomb katie. and having that close of a friendship is, i would argue, even more important than that of a bf/gf relationship... but its so much harder to maintain. i donno.. complicated stuff you have going on. if you ever wanna talk... yeah... i pretty much have no life.. so call me.
daaaaaaaaammmmmmnnnnn we don't kick it as much as we fucking should. because if there's anyone in the world that can relate to you with the stef thing, it's me, i went through that exact thing with daniel, and it does seem like a relationship and a best friendship shuold be able to coexsist but it's a lot harder than people think. some people, like nykky can pull it off, some people, like daniel, are too simple minded to be pulled into two places at once, i guess. i built up so much anger and resentment towards daniel and his ladyfriend, but lately, though obviously i'm still n the process of overcoming, i've come to realize that doing that seriously takes away from the quailty of your life. i'm not saying you should let her off the hook...actually, i shouldn't be giving you adivce in this considering the circumstances, cause me and daniel are friends, but it will never ever go back to what it was, and thats partically my fault
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dude i cant but always feel hurt after reading posts about stef or when you talk about her. it kind of makes me feel like i dont really matter, and that if stef didnt leave you we wouldnt be as close. and i know what its like to lose a good friend, believe me it sucks but sometimes thats just how things go. people grow and change and you just have to deal with it, even if its hard. i dont mean any offense, im just giving my honest opinion.
I think its easy to feel unfulfilled when we have spent almost 18 years, the entirety of our existence, in preparation for something that has not yet happened. that something, I think, is the rest of our lives. some people back out and try to live life to the fullest before they have set themselves up to do so without life-altering consequences. but until I have gotten through the preparatory stage of my life, aka childhood etc., I dont feel like I am ready to make my life everything I think it can possibly be. that may or may not be true for you, but its something to think about. I dont know if many people see their life in that light.
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but that's beside the point. the point i'm trying to make is that no matter where you start, or what you start to get on your way, I know you'll go far. if you can accept people that you used to hate, then you can make friends anywhere in the world.
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and having that close of a friendship is, i would argue, even more important than that of a bf/gf relationship... but its so much harder to maintain. i donno.. complicated stuff you have going on. if you ever wanna talk... yeah... i pretty much have no life.. so call me.
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