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[spell your first name backwards]: assilem.
[how old?]: 21
[where do you live?]: hamden, connecticut
[4 words that sum you up]: skittish, spacey, loyal, naive
DESCRIBE YOUR:
[wallet]: green corduroy.
[pillow cover]: beige... and the silkiest-softest EVER.
[coffee cup]: paper... with the words "barnes and noble cafe proudly serving starbucks coffee" on the side.
[shoes]: none, ideally.
[colgne/perfume]: lavender oil. or this stuff pete got me ages ago.
[piercings]: 3 in the left ear, 1 in the right ear, belly button.
[what you are wearing now]: terrycloth shorts, salvation army t-shirt. verrrry comfy, though not-so-stylin'.
[hair]: too freakin' SHORT. and now very dark.
[in my head]: not enough elbow room..? a-haha. ha.
[wishing]: i could just feel.. happy. that's all. just happy. meh.
[after this]: BED, oh my lovely bed.
[talking to]: ryanh, robby, miss kristen, lenny... not ryan#1 because he doesn't like talking to me anymore, evidently. add one more to the fuckin' list. :P
[eating]: double sesame rice cakes. THEY ARE GOOD I SWEAR.
[some of your fav movies]: soooo too many to name... empire records, lotr, dude where's my car (scary, isnt it?), say anything, better off dead, almost famous, nightmare before christmas etc etc etc...
[something ur looking forward to in the upcoming months:] *shrugs* getting started at UNH... maybe working with the radio station. doing SOMETHING. i am so restless. the benefit show, which im really hoping will happen.
[last thing you ate]: the rice cakes that my mother swears are like death, or something.
[something ur deathly afraid of]: snakes and death (go figure). and car accidents. cars are my trigger.
[do u like candles]: i like fire. so yes. (freak? yes. yes, i am.)
[do u like incense]: nag champa, especially. oh, and opium scented, but it makes me dizzy. meh.
[do u believe in love]: yeah... i dont know that i believe i'll find it, but i do believe in it, yes. :)
[do you believe in soul mates]: yes'm.
[do you believe in love at first site]: YES, and i hate the arrogance behind the answer "NO". like you know for sure, people, come on now.
[do u believe in forgiveness]: for the most part.
[if u could have any animal for a pet]: LION! or a horse. (and zoey and chel, all at the same time.)
[what are 3 cities you wouldn't mind relocating to]: mm... salem, marshall's creek... or any of the ones where my girls are livin'.
[what are some of your fav chillin foods]: kashi, lol. sushi... fruit. broccoli. luna bars!
[what's something you wish you could understand better]: being cool, lol. seriously. how sad is that..? :D
[anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time]: i'll refrain.
IN THE LAST 24 HOURS YOU HAVE:
01. Cried: yes, actually.
02. bought something: my bright pink and yellow sneakers.
03. Gotten sick: no, ew.
04. Sang: not enough.
05. Eaten: well... yeah.
06. Been kissed: yes'm. :)
07. Felt stupid: oh, gosh. yes. lol.
08. Met someone new: no.
09. Moved on: in a little way, i actually have.
10. Talked to an ex: depends how you classify "ex".
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11. Missed an ex: *shrugs* i always miss people, it really means very little.
12. talked to someone you have a crush on: i have :)
13. had a serious talk: eh.
14. missed someone: again, with the missing people.
15. hugged someone: *nods*
16. Fought with your parents: i try not to.
17. Dreamed about someone you can't be with: i have nightmares, not dreams. ..so maybe! lol jk. ...no, really. ...nevermind.
SOCIAL LIFE:
01. Best girl friend: kris, jess. AND OF COURSE the MS girls... eunji, bri, cams and my migs.
02. Best guy friend: eh... various of my boys. pinks, i love my pinks.
03. Boy/Girlfriend?: do i ever..?
04. If no, current partner: "in crime?" <-- Zoey-Linn, in that case. ;) (Can you tell I love my dog? Geezus...)
05. aim: xx loveforfire
06. Pager/Cell: not here, thanks.
07. are you the center of attention or the wallflower: i try not to be the center of attention, it freaks me out.
08. what type of automobile do u drive: '97 camry... my witch baby. :( i miss her.
09. would you rather be with friends or on a date: SEE i have a problem with one or the other. but im not going to start. see "soapbox" rant from above. ...maybe below, i started this in the middle somewhere.
10. Do you attend church: I would if I were Christian... Bet ya didn't think to ask that one, did you? :) WHOA soapbox alert... Apologies, kids. Apologies.
12. do you like being around people: depends on my mood. i can be very solitary. i like to be quiet and comfortable, and if someone can do that with me... i'm all about it.
WHO:
01. have you known the longest: jessabelle.
02. do you argue the most with: robby, lol.
03. do you always get along with: most of my friends, these days.
04. is the most trustworthy: mig.
05. makes you laugh the most: OH gosh... kristen kills me, eunji, jeanabean, everyone i work with, jess and i laugh over the dumbest and best things, and ryan, lately.. he gets the "newest fun friend" award. :)
06. is the nicest: they're all pretty damn nice...
07. has the coolest parents: JEAN!
08. has the coolest siblings: hmm.. i dont know?
09. is the most blunt: robby. geezus. lol.
10. is the smartest: im pretty much in awe of all of them.
PERSONAL
01. who is your role model: tori amos. no joke, she's amazing.
02. what are some of your pet peeves: how much time do you have..? ;) no, things like people who can't navigate around stop signs... self-righteous soapbox-type preaching.. intolerance, aka sheer ignorance of the broader world picture... you know. the norm.
03. have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: i don't even know. i honestly cannot answer that question... i get in my own way, im not sure anything else actually does.
04. have you ever cried over the opposite sex: yes, everytime one of them - one in particular - decides to rip my heart out and play hackysack with it. it happens often. :)
05. do you have a "type" of person you always go after: evidently, assholes. but i hope im breaking that cycle, little by little.
06. have you ever lied to your best friend: by omission, sure. sometimes, it's just for the best.
07. ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you: yes. but i can't do revenge, i don't have the heart for that.
08. rather be dumper or dumpee: shuddup.
09. rather have a relationship or a "hookup": i dont know anymore. im tired of getting hurt, i cant lie about that.
10. want someone you don't have right now: i love the ambiguity of a word like "have"...
11. ever liked your best guy/girl friend: unfortunately.
12. do you want to get married: if it happens, it happens.
13. do you want kids: yes. granny-wendy style.
14. do you believe in psychics: yes. not generally ones that claim to BE psychics, however.
15. do you believe you know the person whom you will marry at this point in time: who knows. maybe it's creepy mullet-man. that'd be hot.
16. what is your favorite part of your physical appearance: i don't really like ANY part, now do i..? bastard. :)
17. what is your favorite part of your emotional being: it relieves me and annoys me that im so naive.
18. are you happy with you: no. i am not what i could/should be. so.
19. are you happy with your life: i second the regret thing.
20. if you could change 1 THING: id let myself just ACCEPT things and keep a great perspective anyway. that's what i'd change about myself, anyway... then there's the AIDS epidemic and George W. Bush... Among other things...