HEY FUCK YOU!
"You make me nervous" Nervous as in a bad way, like you can't stand to be around me and you get frustrated when you're with me? How the hell did you raise two kids for 8 years by yourself, and after 10 months of one not living with you, you get nervous when both of them are in the room? That's a cool thing to say to your daughter whom you kicked out of your house last thanks giving. Yeah that's me. The one that gets in your car every day and has a smile on like I'm happy to see you. Fuck that shit. You're a bitch. You're my mom, so I love you. But you really are screwed in the head woman. "Nervous" HA! Dad pays you enough money for a kid that doesn't live there, so go hire a fucking shrink so you're not "nervous" around me anymore. Sorry if my language, and the things I believe, and my BOYFRIEND and my friends don't measure up to what the fucking Bible wants, but I'm a person so you need to respect me and what I feel. Which you don't do, by the way. You think I don't respect your religion? I put a capital B at the beginning of Bible didn't I? Because it's a noun which means it has importance, which means it must be important! See, I'm not as disrespectful as you like to believe. Your a hypocrit. You sit there and say how bad people are who are addicted to drugs, and how bad people are that don't belive in the same things you do. Let me smack something into your pea sized close minded little brain MOM. Your religion has taken over everything you've ever had. Your marrage failed because of it, which is why my dad left and for some reason thought there was something better out there. Geee I wonder why? Nice one. You have this bitch ass husband who forbids you to help out your daughters and do anything else for that matter. Come to think of it. When was the last time you did something without "talking to scott" first? Uh like 5 years? Real cool. Woman didn't protest 100 years ago for rights just to have you sit around and bow to your husband for the fucking fun of it. You try to shove this church shit down my throat, I want to go out and smoke a blunt and say "fuck you & your beliefs" but I don't. I have a strong will. My sister on the other hand, doesn't. But mom, you're the reason we are they way we are. Your religion is your drug. You run away from all of your problems in that stupid church, reading that stupid bible, and saying those stupid prayrs. I don't dare say this to you, because I have more respect for you then that. But, if I mention anything against you, you have a cow over it. Mom, we are in American "land of the free" and we also have the law called freedom of speech. Get mad all you want. But don't tell me what I believe is wrong. Back in the day if you were accused of "blasphamy" you were beheaded. But it's not like that anymore, so you telling me I'm wrong does nothing. So why waste the energy? You could be converting people with those pointless things you say to me. I don't go around telling you you're wrong. So please, shut the hell up. When I talk about Justin you freak out. You should be happy I even have a relationship after the shit I've been through with guys. But instead it's... "Premarital sex is against God's will" am I God? No. So why the hell do I care about his will? Number 1. If and when I decide to have sex with my boyfriend, that will be my perogitive, not your's. Number 2. I won't be doing or not doing anything for the sake of your approval. It will be because I want to do it, and only for that reason. I want to make you proud, but if I make a decision that you don't agree with, it won't kill me. If I have to learn a few hard lessons along the way, so be it. It's better then never learning anything at all. Mother, I don't think you realize the damage you are causing your children. You try to live out this perfect life, with your perfect kids, and your perfect husband. And when something isnt quite as perfect as you'd like you send it off to daddy. Because after all, that is where all my bad qualities come from? Isn't that right? Didn't you tell me that I'm just like my father and that's going to be my downfall? Well woman, let me tell you...if I could take u by your scrawny comandment abiding little throat I would ring you up against a wall and tell you to go screw. I will not fall, I will not end up a nothing. I will be something. And it won't be thanks to you. My father who understands what it's like to be 15, will help me along the way to getting there. Yeah you love me, and yeah that helps to have two parents that love me. But when one of your parents is completely blind and deaf to anything independant you have to show or say, it makes you want to go nuts. I would love to go out and do a million drugs and show you that I'm REALLY not going to listen to you, but instead I'm going to stand my ground and say that you, really really need to start thinking for yourself instead of letting Scott, and the church make your decisions for you. You're going to lose a lot more then your kids along the way. Good luck. MOM!