you grew up and you sparkled
so here i am... my last night in this program. i'm not sure what i'm supposed to feel. people, namely jennifer calantone, have told me this has been a growing experience and while every experience should make you grow, this one certainly yielded a lot more growing.
- it's okay to be alone as long as you're not lonely
- you don't need to be around friends all the time to be happy
- don't trust absolutely everyone with absolutely everything
- spend more time at church [lol]
- studying is not necessary to get As in college
- don't go more than a week without eating an actual meal
- don't become best friends with a pot head if you don't smoke pot
- don't become best friends with a really annoying girl who can't sing
- if you go to an ivy league school, seriously, how do you manage to only make one asian friend?
- don't leave stuff unattended in the laundry room
- learn the schedule for your dining hall while you're still on a meal plan
- don't go to the same restaurant twice, you'll always be disappointed
- "people are sluts and bitches" says my pot head bff
- no school will be of bearable temperature in the summer, not even Ithaca
- Ithaca really is gorges & gangsta
- if you pull an all-nighter, dancing at 5am with a black girl you just met is ideal
- don't join a fitness plan, i don't care how motivated you think you are, don't
- don't sleep through class
- don't sleep in class
- don't sleep
- sleepovers are the best
- bring a computer
- diet pepsi is the newest form of water
- tell your roommate to shower and to change his clothes and to throw out his garbage if he ate chinese food
- when applying for a dorm room, just pick a single
- don't take astronomy, no mattter how cool it sounds
- don't give money to people who claim to need a bus ride to Bimghamton if the first reason they said they need money is because they "don't do drugs"
- don't spend $1.50 on dried fruit in a vending machine, even if you have been eyeing it up for six weeks
- don't cheat on your girlfriend in summer college, especially if you have to fly all the way back to turkey to mend things with her
- if you deal drugs and get caught for underaged drinking, that's pretty pathetic
- clean your room, seriously, just do it
- don't leave food in a friend's room if you want to eat it later
- don't leave rice krispies that your sister mailed you on your desk if you have a roommate
- don't wait until the last week to become friends with someone
- vampire porn leads to grand theft
- don't get into a conversation about SAT/ACT/AP/IB scores
- don't befriend a gay guy who could potentially end up liking you
- don't agree to go to the bell tower with this said gay guy, no matter how bad you feel
- don't take astronomy
- don't take architecture, you'll get addicted to cigarettes
- don't take a lab science or any engineering class, you'll kill yourself
- don't take a class that requires a lot of papers, you'll literally punch yourself
- don't take any classes
- keep track of your money especially if you're stuck on central campus and your bank card doesn't work and you can't eat all day
- don't practice piano in a public lounge
- don't check out books from several libraries at a time
- seriously, don't take astronomy
- don't tell yourself you're lonely, it just makes it worse
- don't miss out on a chance to meet someone new
- get involved early and commit yourself
- giving up is never an option
- rinse and repeat; go back to cornell
I did a lot of crying and a lot of moaning and pissing people off. I made a lot of sad phone calls, especially in the middle of the night. I did a lot to fight this learning experience and now that it's over I feel I've learned valuable lessons I otherwise would have missed. Being here has affirmed I love Cornell and what I'm going to apply as and the topic of my college essay. I never thought I'd ever feel this way, but I miss Wayne and I miss my car and I miss being bored and doing nothing. As much as I secretly wish I could spend some more time here, it's my time to come home and live my normal life. Life won't be the same and I may never be the same, but I know who and where my home is and it's where I need to be.
Six weeks? check.
Epiphanies? check.
Luke's asleep now and his roommate is gone, so I guess I'll go sleep in his roommate's bed. His DVD drive wasn't working, so we couldn't finish watching the third season of 24. This is where I am on the verge of exodus: alone among people. Full circle.
.so.why.do.you.leave.these.stories.unfinished.
- it's okay to be alone as long as you're not lonely
- you don't need to be around friends all the time to be happy
- don't trust absolutely everyone with absolutely everything
- spend more time at church [lol]
- studying is not necessary to get As in college
- don't go more than a week without eating an actual meal
- don't become best friends with a pot head if you don't smoke pot
- don't become best friends with a really annoying girl who can't sing
- if you go to an ivy league school, seriously, how do you manage to only make one asian friend?
- don't leave stuff unattended in the laundry room
- learn the schedule for your dining hall while you're still on a meal plan
- don't go to the same restaurant twice, you'll always be disappointed
- "people are sluts and bitches" says my pot head bff
- no school will be of bearable temperature in the summer, not even Ithaca
- Ithaca really is gorges & gangsta
- if you pull an all-nighter, dancing at 5am with a black girl you just met is ideal
- don't join a fitness plan, i don't care how motivated you think you are, don't
- don't sleep through class
- don't sleep in class
- don't sleep
- sleepovers are the best
- bring a computer
- diet pepsi is the newest form of water
- tell your roommate to shower and to change his clothes and to throw out his garbage if he ate chinese food
- when applying for a dorm room, just pick a single
- don't take astronomy, no mattter how cool it sounds
- don't give money to people who claim to need a bus ride to Bimghamton if the first reason they said they need money is because they "don't do drugs"
- don't spend $1.50 on dried fruit in a vending machine, even if you have been eyeing it up for six weeks
- don't cheat on your girlfriend in summer college, especially if you have to fly all the way back to turkey to mend things with her
- if you deal drugs and get caught for underaged drinking, that's pretty pathetic
- clean your room, seriously, just do it
- don't leave food in a friend's room if you want to eat it later
- don't leave rice krispies that your sister mailed you on your desk if you have a roommate
- don't wait until the last week to become friends with someone
- vampire porn leads to grand theft
- don't get into a conversation about SAT/ACT/AP/IB scores
- don't befriend a gay guy who could potentially end up liking you
- don't agree to go to the bell tower with this said gay guy, no matter how bad you feel
- don't take astronomy
- don't take architecture, you'll get addicted to cigarettes
- don't take a lab science or any engineering class, you'll kill yourself
- don't take a class that requires a lot of papers, you'll literally punch yourself
- don't take any classes
- keep track of your money especially if you're stuck on central campus and your bank card doesn't work and you can't eat all day
- don't practice piano in a public lounge
- don't check out books from several libraries at a time
- seriously, don't take astronomy
- don't tell yourself you're lonely, it just makes it worse
- don't miss out on a chance to meet someone new
- get involved early and commit yourself
- giving up is never an option
- rinse and repeat; go back to cornell
I did a lot of crying and a lot of moaning and pissing people off. I made a lot of sad phone calls, especially in the middle of the night. I did a lot to fight this learning experience and now that it's over I feel I've learned valuable lessons I otherwise would have missed. Being here has affirmed I love Cornell and what I'm going to apply as and the topic of my college essay. I never thought I'd ever feel this way, but I miss Wayne and I miss my car and I miss being bored and doing nothing. As much as I secretly wish I could spend some more time here, it's my time to come home and live my normal life. Life won't be the same and I may never be the same, but I know who and where my home is and it's where I need to be.
Six weeks? check.
Epiphanies? check.
Luke's asleep now and his roommate is gone, so I guess I'll go sleep in his roommate's bed. His DVD drive wasn't working, so we couldn't finish watching the third season of 24. This is where I am on the verge of exodus: alone among people. Full circle.
.so.why.do.you.leave.these.stories.unfinished.