It's very strange. I keep wanting to turn around and talk to Willow - I forget she's not here with me. I want to point out whenever I see something beautiful, like the way the sunrise looked this morning. The colors were so gorgeous and the air felt soft and I just felt so at peace. I think I'd forgotten what true peace feels like. That's ( Read more... )

It feels so strange, to be on my own. I know that is what I needed to do, because I need to figure this out and control myself. But - I'd almost forgotten, how lonely it can be. To not have anybody who knows who you really are. Who knows and still loves you. Except, I really do have that, still. Because even with the distance between us - we' ( Read more... )

I realized something today. I'm - I'm really human, for good now. Well, for the rest of this lifespan. Which means somehow, I need to figure out how to pick up my life where I left off. I can't just keep drifting in and out of things, I need to think about what I want out of life. I mean, my family - Willow, Tara, Dawn, Buffy - they're ( Read more... )

Nobody in town has been able to sleep in days. It is hard not to feel guilty for it - to feel guilty knowing that perhaps if I'd made a different choice, I might be able to do something to aid the town, I might know more than I do ( Read more... )

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