saturday was odd ( Read more... )

why are all of the Cute emo/geek girls with glasses Straight?

it has been quite a few months-- half a year, really-- since Friend 'retured.' i still have not seen him at all. he's there-- as a presence and a subject often talked about (since he is now engaged to my Cousin)-- but never physically ( Read more... )

so, i am returning after a very long break in 'blogging ( Read more... )

today, while ordering coffee in a small shoppe in the suburb that Clarinet Boy lives in, i met a chick who appricites the complete niceness of The Lead Singer as much as i do ( Read more... )

i'm going to the lake with 3 good friends and staying for about a week. i need this break... this break from this damned city... this break from The Fiance ( Read more... )

so saturday night, The Fiance and i had a talk and i thought everything was fine and dandy. then, this morning came ( Read more... )

The Fiance forgot about our plans today. this is not the first time he has done it. (far from it.) it's like i don't matter... like i don't exist ( Read more... )

my favorite song starts out like this:

maybe you remember
maybe you're locked away
maybe we'll meet again
some better day
some better life
'jonathan fisk' by spoon

that part has always reminded me of two people who suddenly seemed to disapear from my life. one was Clarinet Boy (my first love), and the other was my best only friend in the 8th ( Read more... )

why the hell am i staying here ( Read more... )