Thursday evening
It's late and I'm hungry. I walk back to my cabin after the cruel the talk I had with Colin.
The first thing I notice is that Orlando's clothes are gone. So he got them or someone else took them for him.
I wouldn't be at all surprised if a group of people got them and took them to him. He's loved, he's got friends, he denies it but it's the truth. I'm the asshole who left him. I'm the selfish fucker who ruined his life. At moments like this you see who are your friends and I don't have any of them.
I'm not as social as he is. Half the people here at camp don't even know me, but they know Orli and they all love him. So is it any wonder that I'm the guilty one. I sit on the floor. I'm so confused! I love him so much and I want him back, but then there's the other feelings. I don't believe that it's right to do what Orlando did. Maybe that makes me selfish, but if I'm in a relationship I don't go around kissing other guys.
Maybe I should leave the camp, I'm clearly the most hated person here. Colin called me selfish and spineless. I know it was only Colin's opinion, but it hurt, really hurt. What if everyone thinks like that? David's been the only one who cares even a little. He was kind and friendly towards me, but he's not met Orli yet. He's bound to fall in love with Orli too.
I lean back to my bed and I feel something under the bed. It's Orli's grey sweater...I pull it close to me. It smells like Orli, I pull it even closer and cry. I climb to my bed and wrap the sweater around me and close my eyes. It's like he's here, it's like Orli's here with me...
I'm going to stay here in the cabin for one night and leave tomorrow. Nobody wants me here, so tomorrow I'm gone...
The first thing I notice is that Orlando's clothes are gone. So he got them or someone else took them for him.
I wouldn't be at all surprised if a group of people got them and took them to him. He's loved, he's got friends, he denies it but it's the truth. I'm the asshole who left him. I'm the selfish fucker who ruined his life. At moments like this you see who are your friends and I don't have any of them.
I'm not as social as he is. Half the people here at camp don't even know me, but they know Orli and they all love him. So is it any wonder that I'm the guilty one. I sit on the floor. I'm so confused! I love him so much and I want him back, but then there's the other feelings. I don't believe that it's right to do what Orlando did. Maybe that makes me selfish, but if I'm in a relationship I don't go around kissing other guys.
Maybe I should leave the camp, I'm clearly the most hated person here. Colin called me selfish and spineless. I know it was only Colin's opinion, but it hurt, really hurt. What if everyone thinks like that? David's been the only one who cares even a little. He was kind and friendly towards me, but he's not met Orli yet. He's bound to fall in love with Orli too.
I lean back to my bed and I feel something under the bed. It's Orli's grey sweater...I pull it close to me. It smells like Orli, I pull it even closer and cry. I climb to my bed and wrap the sweater around me and close my eyes. It's like he's here, it's like Orli's here with me...
I'm going to stay here in the cabin for one night and leave tomorrow. Nobody wants me here, so tomorrow I'm gone...