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I looked at myself in the mirrior last weekend before I went to meet everyone for the moongoons honeymoon V at first ave. I thought, this is exactly who I want to be. I had my favorite red dress on, my new zip up from mike, boots, and my new purse. I thought, sure mike broke you a little, but aaron might show up and you've always liked him right? ( Read more... )

I hang out with a lot of guys that are terrified of being alone at the end of the night. You can sin or spend the night all alone. and damnit I swear I'm not one of them, but the truth of it is I am. Sometimes I like sitting at parties and letting everything happen around me. Who's who, who drank too much. Who will you be with tonight sweet heart. ( Read more... )

Pictures running through my head of the perfection that played out like a movie. Just like a movie, very short lived. You can only fall asleep to the same movie so many times before you need something new, and that's alright. I just wanted to be your favorite ( Read more... )

I've had an epiphany. My judgement is fucked. I permanently have drunken judgement. Thinking people are attractive that aren't, and that I mean more than just once. But I don't think I'm alone. I think most girls can relate. So I just need a reality check, sober up my perception a bit.. Guys want someone to fuck when its convenient. That's all ( Read more... )

I was sitting in bumper to bumper traffic after driving to see you, hoping I might cheer you up.. Watching the minutes pass.. Late for work, again. Gas tank on E.. And I thought.. WHAT AM I DOING? Why am I here again? Why do I always give so much of myself to people that don't always deserve it ( Read more... )

If there's someone for everyone he might be it. I know there's someone who cares about me waiting at home, but now I know there will always be someone here who does too ( Read more... )

The place we all watch on tv, and I'm just another face in the crowd. If I stayed in this city it would eat me alive. My feet hurt from these god damn boots and I just spent my grocery money for the next 2 months on a purse. Nothings real here and he's no exception. I'll be gone in a day and won't see him for months.. I tell myself I like it that ( Read more... )

When I wake up in the morning, turn my head to realize it's not you anymore.. A sense of relief sometimes, relieved that I'm not beside someone who wasn't dreaming of me. We both know you never dreamt of me. I was what was comfortable, not what you wanted, not what you needed. I remember the times you'd turn over and say a different name in your ( Read more... )

I'm happy. And I'm thankful for the people in my life the past weeks. Its awesome that I can breathe again and I'm over Alex. Us having no contact anymore may be a bit drastic, but it had to be done and everyone knows that. I'm just really genuinely happy right now.. Everythings really not that great, but its ok I'm still happy.. Actually a lot of ( Read more... )