Swim in the calm tonight. This art does drown.
So. If Meda is talking to me. And Acacia isn't. That makes it fair that I care for Meda, right? NO. Not really. She's taken. But she misses me. Not like I miss her, I'd imagine. But it's something. Better than nothing. God, I'm a fool for her.
It's like the thorn in my side. Dolohov is... he's one of them. He's a blood purist, quick to insult, he's generally nasty, he's just... not right for her. Well, he is right for her. But you're supposed to date the bad boy in school and then move on later in life. You're not supposed to get pregnant and get stuck with him for the rest of your life. He's not father material. Not at all. An I don't mean what the rich puries mean. It's not that he doesn't have money, it's that he doesn't have class, or dedication, or maturity. She needs someone honest, someone who will love her, someone who will do anything for her and her child. Someone like me. I just... I wish she could see that like I can.
And it scares me to think what will happen to her years down the road. He'll end up a criminal, I can smell it on him. And what if... What if she starts thinking like him. What if she ends up a blood purist too...
Maybe she already is.
Maybe that's it. Maybe that's why she wants to be with him. But that can't be... she's not that shallow I hope. And she's already created a Pureblood child. So...
GOD. This drives me crazy. She doesn't deserve me. Maybe that's how I'll have to think of it to forget her. She's 16, knocked up, probably emotionally unstable. She's damaged goods. Like the dented can of peas that's sold for pennies. I shouldn't want her. I may be a mudblood but I'm smart, and good looking and kind and I deserve someone like... someone like Acacia. But... if that's the case, why don't I want her? I don't know. What keeps me coming back?
It must be Love. Pure. And simple. And true.
...and denied. And persecuted. And unwanted. And...
Girls. I need a favor. Can any of you cut hair? cut hair well? I don't need anything spectacular, just an inch trim or so. Let me know.
Sight
• What color are your eyes?: Brown.
• Do you wear glasses or contacts?: Neither.
• Describe something beautiful to you: The bit of snow white flesh on the side of certain women's throats, just above the collarbone, where the shoulder meets the neck.
• Someone you know who has beautiful eyes: Many people have beautiful eyes. I'll say Acacia.
• First physical aspect you notice on the opposite sex: Skin and lips.
• If you could see anyone or anything right now who or what would it be?: ...
Smell
• Do you like your nose?: Actually, yes.
• What does your hair smell like?: Shampoo and a bit of patchouli oil.
• What's your favorite scent from everyday life?: Everyday life? Hmm. Clove cigarette smoke.
• If you use perfume or cologne, what kind?: Scented oil and patchouli.
• Who do you know that smells the best?: I'm not sure, really.
Sound
• What kinda music do you like to listen to?: Rock, metal, a bit of punk. Most music that doesn't suck.
• Name a song that's special at this moment in time: Um, at this moment I'm listening to The Leaving Song Part 2 by Afi. I suppose it holds some specialness.
• Are you a good singer?: I believe so. Ask my dorm mates. Or Andromeda...
• Do you play an instrument?: Yes, guitar.
• Which spoken language sounds the best?: It depends on who is speaking it but I'll say French.
• Favorite everyday life sound?: Music. Duh.
• Least favorite everyday sound?: Young students whining and/or socializing.
• Of the people you know, who has the best sounding voice?: Not sure. Singing voice or...?
Taste
• Favorite food?: Properly made Ceasar salad with chicken.
• Favorite drink?: Chai or black coffee. Firewhiskey definately is up there too, however.
• Do you have a tongue or lip piercing?: Lip.
• What are your thoughts on coffee?: Coffee is beautiful.
• The worst taste you have ever encountered?: Rotten milk. I drank it on accident.
• Would you eat something disgusting for money?: ...how much?
Touch
• Do you consider yourself touch sensitive?: Definately.
• Do you like people touching you?: Depends who.
• Are you ticklish? Where?: Erm, no.
• Which is better: a hug or a kiss?: Kisses.
• Who was the last person you touched?: Not sure. Benjy maybe.
• Who do you wish you could reach out and touch right now?: ...
• Favorite material to touch?: Clear skin, velvet.
It's like the thorn in my side. Dolohov is... he's one of them. He's a blood purist, quick to insult, he's generally nasty, he's just... not right for her. Well, he is right for her. But you're supposed to date the bad boy in school and then move on later in life. You're not supposed to get pregnant and get stuck with him for the rest of your life. He's not father material. Not at all. An I don't mean what the rich puries mean. It's not that he doesn't have money, it's that he doesn't have class, or dedication, or maturity. She needs someone honest, someone who will love her, someone who will do anything for her and her child. Someone like me. I just... I wish she could see that like I can.
And it scares me to think what will happen to her years down the road. He'll end up a criminal, I can smell it on him. And what if... What if she starts thinking like him. What if she ends up a blood purist too...
Maybe she already is.
Maybe that's it. Maybe that's why she wants to be with him. But that can't be... she's not that shallow I hope. And she's already created a Pureblood child. So...
GOD. This drives me crazy. She doesn't deserve me. Maybe that's how I'll have to think of it to forget her. She's 16, knocked up, probably emotionally unstable. She's damaged goods. Like the dented can of peas that's sold for pennies. I shouldn't want her. I may be a mudblood but I'm smart, and good looking and kind and I deserve someone like... someone like Acacia. But... if that's the case, why don't I want her? I don't know. What keeps me coming back?
It must be Love. Pure. And simple. And true.
...and denied. And persecuted. And unwanted. And...
Girls. I need a favor. Can any of you cut hair? cut hair well? I don't need anything spectacular, just an inch trim or so. Let me know.
Sight
• What color are your eyes?: Brown.
• Do you wear glasses or contacts?: Neither.
• Describe something beautiful to you: The bit of snow white flesh on the side of certain women's throats, just above the collarbone, where the shoulder meets the neck.
• Someone you know who has beautiful eyes: Many people have beautiful eyes. I'll say Acacia.
• First physical aspect you notice on the opposite sex: Skin and lips.
• If you could see anyone or anything right now who or what would it be?: ...
Smell
• Do you like your nose?: Actually, yes.
• What does your hair smell like?: Shampoo and a bit of patchouli oil.
• What's your favorite scent from everyday life?: Everyday life? Hmm. Clove cigarette smoke.
• If you use perfume or cologne, what kind?: Scented oil and patchouli.
• Who do you know that smells the best?: I'm not sure, really.
Sound
• What kinda music do you like to listen to?: Rock, metal, a bit of punk. Most music that doesn't suck.
• Name a song that's special at this moment in time: Um, at this moment I'm listening to The Leaving Song Part 2 by Afi. I suppose it holds some specialness.
• Are you a good singer?: I believe so. Ask my dorm mates. Or Andromeda...
• Do you play an instrument?: Yes, guitar.
• Which spoken language sounds the best?: It depends on who is speaking it but I'll say French.
• Favorite everyday life sound?: Music. Duh.
• Least favorite everyday sound?: Young students whining and/or socializing.
• Of the people you know, who has the best sounding voice?: Not sure. Singing voice or...?
Taste
• Favorite food?: Properly made Ceasar salad with chicken.
• Favorite drink?: Chai or black coffee. Firewhiskey definately is up there too, however.
• Do you have a tongue or lip piercing?: Lip.
• What are your thoughts on coffee?: Coffee is beautiful.
• The worst taste you have ever encountered?: Rotten milk. I drank it on accident.
• Would you eat something disgusting for money?: ...how much?
Touch
• Do you consider yourself touch sensitive?: Definately.
• Do you like people touching you?: Depends who.
• Are you ticklish? Where?: Erm, no.
• Which is better: a hug or a kiss?: Kisses.
• Who was the last person you touched?: Not sure. Benjy maybe.
• Who do you wish you could reach out and touch right now?: ...
• Favorite material to touch?: Clear skin, velvet.