something about this post hit some close nerves of my own. saw you linked from darkpinups community, I think. if I may, I have some thoughts, feelings, and reflections to share.
there was always something wrong with anyone i met.
that's because at that age many if not all of us are dealing with issues of fear. be it idenity, self-image, or self worth. god, these issues can haunt some into their 40, 50, or 60s even.
so they/we lie hold to surface and only present what's there. superficial resistances against fears that permeate to the core of our being. your intuition on that matter was dead on. I didn't go to prom. I only walked in graduation because I was happy to get the fuck out of high school.
...i loved being adored. still do.women should be adored, not just lusted after. it's taken me throughout my twenties to really understand you all more. the care women need. the attention. the mentorship, guidance, inspiration, and leading hand to help. that as humans we're all held back from our goals, wants, and ambitions do only to
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another issue I've stuggled with for a long time. even moreso being after of who I was. you are who wish to be. who your guides influence you to be. there are people out there that would have you be your worst, or be your best. choose your company carefully. it's always your choice to be as you wish.
my potential wanes in the in this hell that slowly came to a boil and i didn't notice until it was too late. my skills atrophy with each day. skills? who am i kidding? i don't even have any hobbies. i know nothing about myself. i don't know what i like to do for fun, what kind of music i listen to, what my favorite movies are, or even my favorite color. i'd be useless in writing my own obituary. (even if i weren't dead.) i keep thinking that in the future, i'll figure out who i am. when? tomorrow? next year?
you are skilled. you express yourself well. you're thoughtful. creative. and your photo inserts already have you in touch with some great photographers. you're already on your way. congrats, huh? :)
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something about this post hit some close nerves of my own. saw you linked from darkpinups community, I think. if I may, I have some thoughts, feelings, and reflections to share.
there was always something wrong with anyone i met.
that's because at that age many if not all of us are dealing with issues of fear. be it idenity, self-image, or self worth. god, these issues can haunt some into their 40, 50, or 60s even.
so they/we lie hold to surface and only present what's there. superficial resistances against fears that permeate to the core of our being. your intuition on that matter was dead on. I didn't go to prom. I only walked in graduation because I was happy to get the fuck out of high school.
...i loved being adored. still do.women should be adored, not just lusted after. it's taken me throughout my twenties to really understand you all more. the care women need. the attention. the mentorship, guidance, inspiration, and leading hand to help. that as humans we're all held back from our goals, wants, and ambitions do only to ( ... )
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another issue I've stuggled with for a long time. even moreso being after of who I was. you are who wish to be. who your guides influence you to be. there are people out there that would have you be your worst, or be your best. choose your company carefully. it's always your choice to be as you wish.
my potential wanes in the in this hell that slowly came to a boil and i didn't notice until it was too late. my skills atrophy with each day. skills? who am i kidding? i don't even have any hobbies. i know nothing about myself. i don't know what i like to do for fun, what kind of music i listen to, what my favorite movies are, or even my favorite color. i'd be useless in writing my own obituary. (even if i weren't dead.) i keep thinking that in the future, i'll figure out who i am. when? tomorrow? next year?
you are skilled. you express yourself well. you're thoughtful. creative. and your photo inserts already have you in touch with some great photographers. you're already on your way. congrats, huh? :)
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