i have always used love and lust as drugs as well. always. i probably always will. it's relatively impossible not to, since one of the effects is the increase of seratonin i seem to feel when something in my love life is exciting.
i don't think it's the worst drug, but moderation comes into play. it's ok to have it's effects hit you naturally and to let you feel inebriated (sp?)...i think the problem lies in seeking out love or lust simply to feel...
you can't have love complete you, and you have to try to be happy alone. that's what i have heard and i believe it. it's so hard though...
i really wish i had the money to come see you... i could use a crutch right now.
lastly, "someone that you can call your own"... *le sigh*
*sigh* I'm glad that you get it, I figured that you would. Moderation is so hard for me, hence why I'm in AA, it's something that I've never mastered and I'm not sure it's in the cards for me, though I do try continually to get it right.
I agree that it's wrong to seek out love or lust to simply feel...but at this point I'm not sure if it's an actual interest or if it's just that...something to FEEL since i have no other way to other than when I'm in pain and crying, blah blah blah.
I know that i have to be happy on my own and I knwo that I won't be ready to "have someone to call my own" until I can be happy on my own. It sucks, but I have to wait until it happens for me. I know that in a lot of ways right now I'm NOT happy with myself and I really strive to be. Gotta work on it though. *le'sigh* - is right!
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You'll be fine.
You're an amazing person.
I love you.
So does Abby and many other people!
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I love you too
awww abby-owl-face!
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You're welcome.
Spooky is like begging to get out.
It's so irritating.
I MUST SQUIRT HIM WITH THE BANANA!
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i don't think it's the worst drug, but moderation comes into play. it's ok to have it's effects hit you naturally and to let you feel inebriated (sp?)...i think the problem lies in seeking out love or lust simply to feel...
you can't have love complete you, and you have to try to be happy alone. that's what i have heard and i believe it. it's so hard though...
i really wish i had the money to come see you...
i could use a crutch right now.
lastly, "someone that you can call your own"...
*le sigh*
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I agree that it's wrong to seek out love or lust to simply feel...but at this point I'm not sure if it's an actual interest or if it's just that...something to FEEL since i have no other way to other than when I'm in pain and crying, blah blah blah.
I know that i have to be happy on my own and I knwo that I won't be ready to "have someone to call my own" until I can be happy on my own. It sucks, but I have to wait until it happens for me. I know that in a lot of ways right now I'm NOT happy with myself and I really strive to be. Gotta work on it though. *le'sigh* - is right!
I love you hotpants
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