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Name Angie
♥2. Age 19 years and 7 months as of today :)
♥3. Sex female
♥4. Location my comfy dorm bed at Washington University in St. Louis
♥5. Sexuality I'm straight
♥6. Status I've been single for almost 4 years now. Yes, 4 long years.
♥7. Siblings I have a little brother. He's 17.
What Makes You YOU?
♥1. Name one life altering experience, good or bad. Be as specific as possible. When I was 15, I struggled with an eating disorder. Yes it may sound cliche now, since an alarming growning number of teen girls seem to be suffering with the same issues, but for me, it was definitely drastic. I never really wanted to lose weight to begin with, it just sort of happened, became a habit, an obsession and then it controlled me. In a matter of 6 or 7 months, I went from a healthy weight of 127 (at 5'7) to a low low 95 lbs. My parents took me to therapy every week, 3 times a week sometimes, but it only made things worse. I felt if I could control my weight and my eating, I could control my life--something I never had experienced with my overbearing parents. My boyfriend at the time was very supportive but very scared. He would always tell me everything would be alright, but I knew I was making him very worried. I was miserable, cold, hungry, and felt like my world was coming to a close. After I was told I would have to be placed into a in-patient program for 6 months if I couldn't gain just 1 pound, I started to take a different outlook on my disorder. If I could gain control over my eating--by actually eating again and increasing my weight, I would beat this thing, this creature that took over my tiny frame. Even after I broke up with my boyfriend, after I hit my lowest low, I gathered the strenght to recover. Slowly, over the next year, I gained the weight back. And I haven't been back to that dark path since, even though it is always something I have to watch with myself, as I now know I am prone to addiction, obsession and plain perfection.
♥2. Marilyn Manson said, "People don't keep journals for themselves, they keep them for other people. Like a secret they don't want to tell, but they want everyone to know.” What sort of information is contained in your Live Journal? Is it friends-only? Why/Why Not? Prove you have brains behind that beauty
I definitely believe in this quote. With a live journal, I feel that part of our true inner personality remains shrouded because we are catering to an audience. This happens automatically. If we have knowledge that someone, no matter how close, is "listening in" to our private thoughts, we will censor them, even in the slightest sense. My journal is friends only and I keep it honest to the extent that I record intimate details in a blatant "this is my life, and if you don't like it, too bad" way, yet I keep the most exposing details-- the ones I only share in inner dialouge with my soul--to myself.
♥3. If you had to give up one IMPORTANT thing in your life, what would it be? Explain why you think you could live without it.
This will sound corny, but I would give up my baby blanket. I am 19 years old, and I have never slept more than 5 nights without it. It is tattered, worn and falling apart, but it is my haven and my comfort. But I would give it up because I know deep down I still have my baby blanket because it retains my inner child, my innocence and my fear of facing the real world as an adult. Someday, when I get married maybe, I'll pack it away. I don't think my husband will want to share a bed with a dirty old blanket. haha.
♥4. What point in your life so far have you felt the most confident and perfect? Explain the scenario and your feelings attached to it. Provide a picture if possible.
Well I don't have a picture of this moment, but two years ago when I was accepted into my top choice school, Wash U, at the time a top 10 university in the nation, I was crying with joy and so amazed that I stood out over tons of other applicants. For once in my life I felt the most amazing achievement--complete success in the fact that all my hard work in highschool had paid off 100%. Now in a couple more years I hope to have this feeling again--when I gain acceptance into law school, or into a graduate creative writing program. At the moment I'm still deciding which path to follow, but whatever happens down the line, I will be waiting.
Time To Reveal Your Beauty!
♥1. First and foremost, a cute picture of you. Try to have one that shows your face really well.
I really don't like my smile, but this one I thought was actually pretty good. :)
♥2. Now, a picture of something/someone you love dearly. A person, pet, or object.. Whatever!
that's my big 'ol baby!
♥3. Next, we want to see a picture of you at what you consider your worst. One with no make-up, or silly make-up… One where you looked and first cringed. How can we love you at your best if we haven‘t seen your worst?♥
This is me back during the times of my eating disorder. I feel I look disgusting, yet looking at this picture reminds me how strong I have become. It's revealing almost.
♥4. Post 5-10 pictures of you. Any pictures you'd like. Prove to us how gorgeous you are.
thanks!
and with some of my sorority girls!!
♥2. Age 19 years and 7 months as of today :)
♥3. Sex female
♥4. Location my comfy dorm bed at Washington University in St. Louis
♥5. Sexuality I'm straight
♥6. Status I've been single for almost 4 years now. Yes, 4 long years.
♥7. Siblings I have a little brother. He's 17.
What Makes You YOU?
♥1. Name one life altering experience, good or bad. Be as specific as possible. When I was 15, I struggled with an eating disorder. Yes it may sound cliche now, since an alarming growning number of teen girls seem to be suffering with the same issues, but for me, it was definitely drastic. I never really wanted to lose weight to begin with, it just sort of happened, became a habit, an obsession and then it controlled me. In a matter of 6 or 7 months, I went from a healthy weight of 127 (at 5'7) to a low low 95 lbs. My parents took me to therapy every week, 3 times a week sometimes, but it only made things worse. I felt if I could control my weight and my eating, I could control my life--something I never had experienced with my overbearing parents. My boyfriend at the time was very supportive but very scared. He would always tell me everything would be alright, but I knew I was making him very worried. I was miserable, cold, hungry, and felt like my world was coming to a close. After I was told I would have to be placed into a in-patient program for 6 months if I couldn't gain just 1 pound, I started to take a different outlook on my disorder. If I could gain control over my eating--by actually eating again and increasing my weight, I would beat this thing, this creature that took over my tiny frame. Even after I broke up with my boyfriend, after I hit my lowest low, I gathered the strenght to recover. Slowly, over the next year, I gained the weight back. And I haven't been back to that dark path since, even though it is always something I have to watch with myself, as I now know I am prone to addiction, obsession and plain perfection.
♥2. Marilyn Manson said, "People don't keep journals for themselves, they keep them for other people. Like a secret they don't want to tell, but they want everyone to know.” What sort of information is contained in your Live Journal? Is it friends-only? Why/Why Not? Prove you have brains behind that beauty
I definitely believe in this quote. With a live journal, I feel that part of our true inner personality remains shrouded because we are catering to an audience. This happens automatically. If we have knowledge that someone, no matter how close, is "listening in" to our private thoughts, we will censor them, even in the slightest sense. My journal is friends only and I keep it honest to the extent that I record intimate details in a blatant "this is my life, and if you don't like it, too bad" way, yet I keep the most exposing details-- the ones I only share in inner dialouge with my soul--to myself.
♥3. If you had to give up one IMPORTANT thing in your life, what would it be? Explain why you think you could live without it.
This will sound corny, but I would give up my baby blanket. I am 19 years old, and I have never slept more than 5 nights without it. It is tattered, worn and falling apart, but it is my haven and my comfort. But I would give it up because I know deep down I still have my baby blanket because it retains my inner child, my innocence and my fear of facing the real world as an adult. Someday, when I get married maybe, I'll pack it away. I don't think my husband will want to share a bed with a dirty old blanket. haha.
♥4. What point in your life so far have you felt the most confident and perfect? Explain the scenario and your feelings attached to it. Provide a picture if possible.
Well I don't have a picture of this moment, but two years ago when I was accepted into my top choice school, Wash U, at the time a top 10 university in the nation, I was crying with joy and so amazed that I stood out over tons of other applicants. For once in my life I felt the most amazing achievement--complete success in the fact that all my hard work in highschool had paid off 100%. Now in a couple more years I hope to have this feeling again--when I gain acceptance into law school, or into a graduate creative writing program. At the moment I'm still deciding which path to follow, but whatever happens down the line, I will be waiting.
Time To Reveal Your Beauty!
♥1. First and foremost, a cute picture of you. Try to have one that shows your face really well.
I really don't like my smile, but this one I thought was actually pretty good. :)
♥2. Now, a picture of something/someone you love dearly. A person, pet, or object.. Whatever!
that's my big 'ol baby!
♥3. Next, we want to see a picture of you at what you consider your worst. One with no make-up, or silly make-up… One where you looked and first cringed. How can we love you at your best if we haven‘t seen your worst?♥
This is me back during the times of my eating disorder. I feel I look disgusting, yet looking at this picture reminds me how strong I have become. It's revealing almost.
♥4. Post 5-10 pictures of you. Any pictures you'd like. Prove to us how gorgeous you are.
thanks!
and with some of my sorority girls!!