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I am really happy,
Garrett and I are officially dating now,
which is awesome but I'm also scared.
The way I get worried about not being good enough always bites me in the ass.
But I think he understands why.
At least I hope so.
And I’m nervous about college since it‘s his sophomore year there...in New York : (
But he said I would see him every weekend,
because he would drive every weekend to come here.
And I would drive there the next weekend or something
because I drive everywhere anyways.
It's only 3 hours away, which really isn't that bad at all.
The way we ended up together was so...strange.
So un-planned and so un-expected.
Just fell on my lap.
But good, very, very good.
I'm not going to worry about anything.
Take his advice and just go with the flow.
It works very nice actually.
Just soaking up everything and trying not to think ahead.
But there have been other situations bringing me down.
I'm still sad and mad about things.
I don't know, whatever.
I can't change how people are going to think of me.
So why bother trying?
I work too hard on everyone else.
Care too much.
Which in the end I just get hurt.
I don't want to be like this anymore,
and I could lie and say,
"Oh whatever, I don't care about what people think of me."
But I do, I really do.
I pretend it doesn't matter.
But, I guess that’s just me.
Believe me, if I could be a hard assed bitch,
that didn't give a shit about anything,
I would gobble that right up.
Went to Nashua yesterday, which didn't exactly make things better.
Holds too many memories.
But I got to see my ladies.
"Moooooore then words!"
Minus Steph M, Skippy, Rikki, Jess and Sam :(
Yeah, come on now girls, lets have another girls night to reunite our love haha.
Really though, make plans.
I think I will just opt for the beach next time though.
Even if I have to go alone.
I think I think too much...
So here are the rest of the pictures from last Saturday.
I think I will start off with this one,
because it's fucking scary and gives me nightmares.
Yeah, what the hell is going on there?!
Oh dear God...gay lovin' at its peak.
And yes, Dave’s new apartment has a BAR!
I was calling a sex line obviously.
"Look, beer and cards...it must be ART!"
Some random girl, Kara…sort of, and Jim.
I guess she doesn't want people to see her face?
I think I was looking at pictures and thinking, "EWWW! Delete!"
Dan got a little drunk and had a happy time in the corner.
Best picture in the world.
Emo land
I look ready to blow chunks haha.
The birthday boy, being a nut standing on an amp or something.
Huss, two girls, and Daigle.
(Why do guys call each other by their last names?)
Pink shirts and fake feather Indian hats are what's "in" man.
(WHAT THE FUCK IS THE REAL NAME FOR THOSE THINGS!!! SOMONE PLEASE FIND OUT AND TELL ME!!!)
Still looking real pale and ready to blow chunks.
Might go to the Summit on Saturday with Melissa, her boyfriend and Garrett.
They have a Jacuzzi in the room (it's like this two bedroom apartment)
and we fill the Jacuzzi up with bubble bath and have crazy times.
And they have this pool with waterfalls and stuff.
It's just really pretty and fun.
Garrett and I are officially dating now,
which is awesome but I'm also scared.
The way I get worried about not being good enough always bites me in the ass.
But I think he understands why.
At least I hope so.
And I’m nervous about college since it‘s his sophomore year there...in New York : (
But he said I would see him every weekend,
because he would drive every weekend to come here.
And I would drive there the next weekend or something
because I drive everywhere anyways.
It's only 3 hours away, which really isn't that bad at all.
The way we ended up together was so...strange.
So un-planned and so un-expected.
Just fell on my lap.
But good, very, very good.
I'm not going to worry about anything.
Take his advice and just go with the flow.
It works very nice actually.
Just soaking up everything and trying not to think ahead.
But there have been other situations bringing me down.
I'm still sad and mad about things.
I don't know, whatever.
I can't change how people are going to think of me.
So why bother trying?
I work too hard on everyone else.
Care too much.
Which in the end I just get hurt.
I don't want to be like this anymore,
and I could lie and say,
"Oh whatever, I don't care about what people think of me."
But I do, I really do.
I pretend it doesn't matter.
But, I guess that’s just me.
Believe me, if I could be a hard assed bitch,
that didn't give a shit about anything,
I would gobble that right up.
Went to Nashua yesterday, which didn't exactly make things better.
Holds too many memories.
But I got to see my ladies.
"Moooooore then words!"
Minus Steph M, Skippy, Rikki, Jess and Sam :(
Yeah, come on now girls, lets have another girls night to reunite our love haha.
Really though, make plans.
I think I will just opt for the beach next time though.
Even if I have to go alone.
I think I think too much...
So here are the rest of the pictures from last Saturday.
I think I will start off with this one,
because it's fucking scary and gives me nightmares.
Yeah, what the hell is going on there?!
Oh dear God...gay lovin' at its peak.
And yes, Dave’s new apartment has a BAR!
I was calling a sex line obviously.
"Look, beer and cards...it must be ART!"
Some random girl, Kara…sort of, and Jim.
I guess she doesn't want people to see her face?
I think I was looking at pictures and thinking, "EWWW! Delete!"
Dan got a little drunk and had a happy time in the corner.
Best picture in the world.
Emo land
I look ready to blow chunks haha.
The birthday boy, being a nut standing on an amp or something.
Huss, two girls, and Daigle.
(Why do guys call each other by their last names?)
Pink shirts and fake feather Indian hats are what's "in" man.
(WHAT THE FUCK IS THE REAL NAME FOR THOSE THINGS!!! SOMONE PLEASE FIND OUT AND TELL ME!!!)
Still looking real pale and ready to blow chunks.
Might go to the Summit on Saturday with Melissa, her boyfriend and Garrett.
They have a Jacuzzi in the room (it's like this two bedroom apartment)
and we fill the Jacuzzi up with bubble bath and have crazy times.
And they have this pool with waterfalls and stuff.
It's just really pretty and fun.