(Untitled)

[_xlovemeformex_]

I now understand why my trainer lives by the rule "thou shalt not shit where thou eats". Ok, so she didn't say it like that, she said "I don't shit where I eat." And now I can understand it. Probably not the same reason, but still. Ugh I'm so stressed out right now. I hate feeling like the bad guy, and I hate feeling like my emotions are wrong, and

Comments

[melonsplash]

Hey xloveme,
I have been a bad f'lister by not being on lj or keeping up with my f'list, but recently I've been trying to tell myself my perception that I have to do everything consistently and everything is actually making it more difficult, so just like with everything I'll try to dip into doing things as much as I can.
So, even though I've seen some of your entries over the year I haven't commented. Bad me. So I'm doing that now.

Well done on everything you've achieved this year, it sounds like you're doing really well. I know of course that doesn't mean things are easy, or that things aren't shit at times. I understand completely and empathise with not knowing what's OCD or not - the biggest thing I'm having that trouble with right now is my relationship; I can't tell if different feelings, for example, feeling apathy, is depression or OCD-meds or habitual repression of strong feelings or ACTUAL lack of feelings. >_I'm still struggling with my depression and something that comes up sometimes is whether exercise will help my mood

[_xlovemeformex_]

Exercise has helped for a majority of the time, but since I don't feel the pressure OCD and depression and anxiety every day anymore, when it hits, it hits hard. And it happens sometimes even if I do exercise, but I feel I have become overly obsessive about my eating and gym habits, so that might contribute to it.