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honestly, i have no idea where i'm supposed to be at this point in my life. i look around me at school, at the people that used to be important to me... and i don't get it. i honestly don't. i feel as though i'm about 10 years ahead in my life, but it doesn't even bother me. even my parents think i need to be a kid still. but i'm not. and i'm sick of being compaired to people who still act like we're all in grade nine.
i know a lot of the reason i've grown up so much in the past year or so is because of you. you know who you are, as does anyone else that's reading this. i can never completely put into words just how i feel about you. the three little words that we have been saying to each other for over a year now sometimes don't even feel like enough. i love you. i do. but it's so much more than that. i will never be able to thank you enough for everything that you do for me. it means so much more to me than anyone could ever put in to words. i wake up each morning and no matter what's going in my life, i know at the end of the day, you're still there with me and everything is going to be fine. together we have been through so much. and it's because you have been by my side through everything that i'm still in one piece today. i owe you the world. i only wish i could give it to you. i have given you everything i can ever give, and that is my self. you have me. no one else will ever be able to say that. it's me and you, babe. nothing or no one will ever change that. i love you with all my heart, and you, or anyone, couldn't say or do a thing that would ever make me stop. and i don't want to stop. because you have given me something that i didn't think i'd ever find. and that is unconditional love. it's commitment. it's being there every damn day no matter how i'm acting, no matter what i say and no matter how difficult i am. a few years ago, a love like ours would have seemed truly impossible to me. but now, it's the only thing that matters in the end. it's what keeps me going. it's what puts a smile on my face no matter how hard the tears are falling. it's what makes me laugh even when i'm having the shittiest day imaginable. and it's all because of you. for me, you are it. you're everything. and i mean that, you know... everything. i love you so much, and i hope you never doubt that for a second. august 26, 2004... ever since that day, everything i've done has been better because you were there with me. i don't know what i'd do with out you. you are more than just the love of my life. you are my best friend, my confidant, the one person i can count on to be there through thick and thin. whenever i'm without you, i miss you more than anyone could comprehend. that is why the time i spend with you is so damn precious to me. i cannot wait until we are finally together every single day. that will be one of the happiest days of my life.
thank you for every single thing you do for me.
i love you.
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