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i got my hurrrrr did this afternoon.
I don't have a picture so you'll see it when you see it.
House comes on tonight, i am a fucking TV whore.
I want to surprise her after school with a card on her windesheild instructing her to "open" her present, I'd have a bow on the drivers door with a boquet in the driver seat. That just be the start, I would give her a call and tell her to wear something she looks beautiful in, id pause and then say wear anything. I would meet her in a parking lot, standing outside my car with a teddy bear in hand. I'd kiss her on the cheek and give her the bear and tell her to hop in for the rest of the surprise. I'd play a cd of songs that say my feelings ten times better than i ever could say them. We'd turn the music down and talk for what seemed like forever, the bliss would consume me and i'd have to remind myself to watch the road, not her gorgeous face. Over time we'd end up at a serene empty lake, about an hour before sunset. I'd lay out a blanket among the soft grass, place some pillows and another blanket out. I'd put a basket of her favorite foods on those same blankets. I'd quickly tell her not to thank me, for the surprises were still yet to come. After we ate, i'd pull our extra blanket over us and wrap my arm around her. As the sun sank into the water before us, i'd reluctantly pull my arms away from her stretch and stand, offering a hand to help her up. I'd proceed to pack everything into my jeep and we'd make our way onto the road again. I'd drive slowly back toward reality, more music this time. I'd ask her if she had enjoyed everything thus far and with a smile, tell her there was more to come. We'd end up at a small place i knew was having an open mic night, my guitar and saxophone were in the backseat. I'd play for as long as they'd allow, every note would have my soul hanging onto it. I'd get some applause and leave the stage and head back to the locked stare of the most beautiful sight on earth, her eyes. We would retreat to the vehicle one last time, it was pretty dark by now. I told her the last surprise was soon to come, less music, more of her eyes. I would find it so hard to drive, she was in the car with me, sure it had happened once before, but this was my dream girl and finally she was not a dream, she was with me. I'd hold her hand as i drove, when i had to shift gears i refused to let her go, we laughed because she dropped gears the one time i told her to shift for me, it didn't matter my heart was happy, but not my clutch. We ended up at the most beautiful overlook i know of, we walked across the coarse mixture of grass and weeds to a small flat of rocks i held her hand as we made it among them. I looked up to the moon, then i glanced over to her and she was looking up at the night sky as well. I told her this day would never end, i'd live it out in my mind everyday till i was no longer on the earth. I wouldn't be lying to her. I smiled as she did back to me, i spoke softly to her, i've wanted this day since i was born this lo, i was reluctant to say love, whatever it we have i've been wanting this since my first breath. To make you happy is wha ti was born to do, anyone before you was just a filler, anyone after a substandard. I kissed her softly upon her lips, it was late now being the gentleman i am, i pulled my lips away and smiled. I placed my hands on her cheeks and leaned to kiss her forehead, this instance would be remembered up until my own death. I insisted that the skyline would never change and we would make it a point to come back more often. As i helped her into the jeep i looked back up to that night sky lfor the last time. We drove through the downtown lights, everything since that kiss was all so much quieter, it was harder to see...harder to drive, but i struggled on. I was lost in the darkness of the pavement, and on the glimmer of light that shown on her lips. I was lost in the light. I was lost in the darkness. I was lost without her. Before i knew it i was back to her car in that parking lot, i saw that one of my flowers was on her dash, it brought a smile to my heart. I grabbed the final surprise from my backseat, i gave her simply a calender with this day marked on it, the rest of the days were marked out. The rest of the days would never compare to what we shared for just a few hours of extacy. Thats all i'd ever want, that one day with her. My life would be made, i want to tell her, but my vocal chords don't vibrate when i'm around her, i'm just struck with a fasaad of the friend i've become, not the lover i wish i was. Please, believe in me when i say all these words, my heart beats just for the thought that one day...this might happen.
yeah if i have my dream girl i damn well have my jeep.
I don't have a picture so you'll see it when you see it.
House comes on tonight, i am a fucking TV whore.
I want to surprise her after school with a card on her windesheild instructing her to "open" her present, I'd have a bow on the drivers door with a boquet in the driver seat. That just be the start, I would give her a call and tell her to wear something she looks beautiful in, id pause and then say wear anything. I would meet her in a parking lot, standing outside my car with a teddy bear in hand. I'd kiss her on the cheek and give her the bear and tell her to hop in for the rest of the surprise. I'd play a cd of songs that say my feelings ten times better than i ever could say them. We'd turn the music down and talk for what seemed like forever, the bliss would consume me and i'd have to remind myself to watch the road, not her gorgeous face. Over time we'd end up at a serene empty lake, about an hour before sunset. I'd lay out a blanket among the soft grass, place some pillows and another blanket out. I'd put a basket of her favorite foods on those same blankets. I'd quickly tell her not to thank me, for the surprises were still yet to come. After we ate, i'd pull our extra blanket over us and wrap my arm around her. As the sun sank into the water before us, i'd reluctantly pull my arms away from her stretch and stand, offering a hand to help her up. I'd proceed to pack everything into my jeep and we'd make our way onto the road again. I'd drive slowly back toward reality, more music this time. I'd ask her if she had enjoyed everything thus far and with a smile, tell her there was more to come. We'd end up at a small place i knew was having an open mic night, my guitar and saxophone were in the backseat. I'd play for as long as they'd allow, every note would have my soul hanging onto it. I'd get some applause and leave the stage and head back to the locked stare of the most beautiful sight on earth, her eyes. We would retreat to the vehicle one last time, it was pretty dark by now. I told her the last surprise was soon to come, less music, more of her eyes. I would find it so hard to drive, she was in the car with me, sure it had happened once before, but this was my dream girl and finally she was not a dream, she was with me. I'd hold her hand as i drove, when i had to shift gears i refused to let her go, we laughed because she dropped gears the one time i told her to shift for me, it didn't matter my heart was happy, but not my clutch. We ended up at the most beautiful overlook i know of, we walked across the coarse mixture of grass and weeds to a small flat of rocks i held her hand as we made it among them. I looked up to the moon, then i glanced over to her and she was looking up at the night sky as well. I told her this day would never end, i'd live it out in my mind everyday till i was no longer on the earth. I wouldn't be lying to her. I smiled as she did back to me, i spoke softly to her, i've wanted this day since i was born this lo, i was reluctant to say love, whatever it we have i've been wanting this since my first breath. To make you happy is wha ti was born to do, anyone before you was just a filler, anyone after a substandard. I kissed her softly upon her lips, it was late now being the gentleman i am, i pulled my lips away and smiled. I placed my hands on her cheeks and leaned to kiss her forehead, this instance would be remembered up until my own death. I insisted that the skyline would never change and we would make it a point to come back more often. As i helped her into the jeep i looked back up to that night sky lfor the last time. We drove through the downtown lights, everything since that kiss was all so much quieter, it was harder to see...harder to drive, but i struggled on. I was lost in the darkness of the pavement, and on the glimmer of light that shown on her lips. I was lost in the light. I was lost in the darkness. I was lost without her. Before i knew it i was back to her car in that parking lot, i saw that one of my flowers was on her dash, it brought a smile to my heart. I grabbed the final surprise from my backseat, i gave her simply a calender with this day marked on it, the rest of the days were marked out. The rest of the days would never compare to what we shared for just a few hours of extacy. Thats all i'd ever want, that one day with her. My life would be made, i want to tell her, but my vocal chords don't vibrate when i'm around her, i'm just struck with a fasaad of the friend i've become, not the lover i wish i was. Please, believe in me when i say all these words, my heart beats just for the thought that one day...this might happen.
yeah if i have my dream girl i damn well have my jeep.