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so yeah, pretty much everything is different than it was just 3 months ago. i typed out a longgggggggg entry about all of this and it made me feel so much better to vent, but then i realized, "hey these people probably dont really want to read about all this, so how bout i shorten it, like wayyyyyyy shorten it" ... so here it is in a wayyyyyyy shorten version:
...everything has changed: i miss costa rica sooooo much, i miss two very special boys (very, very much), i miss my friends and their old un-stressed selves and being able to actually have time to hang out with me, i love ashley and she is awesome and i wouldnt have survived this summer without her, im burnt out and stretched to my limit , im exhausted and tired, im glad im a senior and im ready for high school to be over but im going to enjoy my last year, i need a job and i applied for one, my to-do list is two whole pages long, im sick of babysitting, i want to just sit back and relax, im tired of being responsible for so much stuff ... i think the real world is starting to hit me and i dont like it and im scared
and surprisingly enough, im not stressed out about college at all, im not applying to any schools that require essays, my SAT scores are decent enough to get me into the school that i want to go to, and i dont have to apply until december and i hate seeing all my friends so stressed out about it ... welcome to the world of being a senior i guess :-/
im going to stop there i think b/c im tired and i need sleep so i can get up at the crack of dawn and babysit ... again :-/