i realized today that i stress out and worry too much. my mind is a little trap that works an idea through the system again and again, like if i think about it enough i'll be sure to see every flaw from a mile away. i don't know how much more i can think about it from now until november before i just explode with worry and die of young age ( Read more... )

lately i have been feeling my age. NOT OLD, i know! just...getting bored really. honestly, i'm thinking about my future, and what i want to end up doing with my life. & something that needs to change is my location ( Read more... )

not just job-work, but work-work, as in packing and lifting heavy boxes and bags and furniture, and unpacking and stressing about it all. i want to go back to being a bump on a couch ( Read more... )

2 points of interest:

uno.awesome soda display!! i wish i lived in places that did stuff like this. it seems i got stuck in an area where nobody gives a shit about shit. funny, that sounds like me...i guess what goes around really is what comes around.


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i swear, there is something wrong with me. i get so jealous over stupid stuff. ug its annoying and i just have to keep focusing on how i'm around now. .....ryan knows this girl amy (that he used to have a crush on :/) who's been friends with him and all the other guys since high school. she posts this facebook album filled with pics of them all ( Read more... )

it's nice that livejournal has returned to being empty. my friends page is filled with carey & raptamakeout (art community) updates, which i find soothing. no one will read this its been a long time since i've had some free time at work. since i finished my monday reports all on monday for the first time in a while (o my!), my whole week has ( Read more... )

because its me and all i'm trying to tell you is WHAT TO DO.

why can't saturday come soonER????

why can't a job just fall into my lap ( Read more... )

gotta kick ass
gotta be kick ass
gotta kick ass
i gotta be kick ass, gotta be kick asslately i've been feeling pretty hopeless. blame it on the (cold) wind if you'd like, but i feel sort of depressed. and i hate it, because i cry so easy....i don't know if thats just me, or if maybe i've just been depressed all my life. its a little unbearable ( Read more... )

that you want to die
i said i've been there before
more than a few times
i go back every once & awhile
you, called me lucky. you
called me lucky.

its in my head!!!! i can't get it out. btw, where do they buy organs? how do i sign up to sell my organs??? livejournal, you brought it up!! point me in the right direction goddamnit.

work sucks. i ( Read more... )