absorbing too much.
thinking too much.
over analyzing everything into the ground.

i always end up
in this state of confusion.
when you are sad,
i cheer you up.
now i'm sad,
and you...nothing.

i always put more in
then what i get out.
this is typical.
and the ending to
everything.

There is a classic moment in The Sun Also Rises when someone asks Mike Campbell how
he went bankrupt, and all he can say in response is, "Gradually then suddenly."
When someone asks how I lost my mind, that is all I can say too.

life is wearing me out.

I got accepted into two programs so far.

One in tallahassee.
I'm liking the looks of that one.

I need to start paying Melissa back
and save money.
The only way to do this is :

get another job & move back in with my parents.

..... I keep telling myself to just do it
and be responsible.

this sucks.

Margaret Anne and I are going to Birmingham today.

I'm pretty stoked.

...When I go to Birmingham, I think of Carrie St. Clair.
I miss her so much.

last night made me so happy.

you were smiling again.

I thought you were becoming immune to me.

i'm pretty sure i'm joining americorps and moving to chicago.

i need to do this.

....i think.

seeing my brothers was all i wanted for christmas.

wish granted.

so we didn't have presents; the way i like it. But we all got 500 dollars donated in our name to habitat for humanity.
oh, but ryne did make me an amazing journal.
thanks bro.

-school sucks really bad.

-i cant make rent this month
so i guess i am going to have to move back in with the rents.

-i have no money to eat

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so, my first ever band practice was this morning... that was amazing.
just you guys wait.

and uhhh now i'm leaving to go to the fest with pipe bomb....sweeeet.