a lot of the dumb people who graduated a year earlier than i did are graduating college this year.
so if that isn't motivation to graduate on time, i don't know what is. i'm way started than those dumb shits.

also, it's finally good weather and there is two weeks left of classes. imma be home soon!

i live in an perpetually fucked up world and am constantly asking myself is it ever going to be different? or am i going to just go from one terrible situation to another?

probably.

i may have a drinking problem?
or i've just been on a serious bender; in the past two weeks i've been sober maybe 2 days. woops?

shitty school/year is almost over.

school makes everything shitty immediately.
maybe i'm just coming in with bad expectations and that's causing them.

home was way better, although i was hardly ever there. i was always out, but i needed it.

i'm so close to the end.

waiting...

i'm home and everything already feels better.

i love jets to brazil and the american analog set.
they make me sad...in a good way, it's nice.
i'm going to go home tomorrow for easter...maybe i won't be so sad then, maybe someone can pull me out of this.

here's looking at you space cowboy.

i ended everything.
and this time i mean it.
it hurt too much to carry on with everything, it was so draining.
i'm always going to love her and miss her terribly. i'm pretty sure at least.
but i'm really going to stick with it and i'm not going to go back in any way.

just send me out west already.

sometimes thinking about everything makes me sick and dizzy.
i want to lie down.

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school's winding down, but unlike a week ago i'm not freaking out about what i'm going to do because i figured it out! woooo
now i just need to make sure i get all my work done...pain in the ass.
i cannot wait for warm weather and no more sweaters. 4reel.

i'm really tired.