if i wasn't smiling right now, i don't know what i would do

my head is killing me

but im happy

i finished my monologue and im satisfied

and i have a boy that makes me happy

I am so fed up with this whole being sick thing

I also feel like I don't fit with the old life in sj and I don't fit with the one here either

I'm completely confused with everything and I hate it

I want to do homeschooling from continental academy ( Read more... )

last night i realized that i will be 18 in a little over a year and a half.

thats crazy.

WELL FUCK THIS

the past three days all i have been was fucking tired and dizzy

now im not dizzy
and im not tired either

what the fuck?

i have to sleep
but i cant
and schools tomorrow

i have to be up at 5 fucking thirty

fuck fuck fuck

my mom keeps asking me if im pregnant

and its scaring the shit out of me.

just because i've been really tired and dizzy lately.

fuck.

in other news i'm really happy [♥]

I will never forget how much I loved Florida 2 summers ago when we spent part of our summer at Grams ( Read more... )

So i made a new livejournal, but i wont be using it until i get my laptop back because i cant make it as pretty as i want it to be ( Read more... )

I almost didn't make it, this has been my hardest year.

Goodbye 05. I'm sorry to say I will hardly miss you.

We had our good times:

• I fell inlove.
• I found some great friends in this hellhole of a state
• My 3 great trips home to sj (SB05, Summer, and 11/11)
• Boyface.
• I stopped caring as much about how i look to other people and it has made me ( Read more... )

This christmas has been strange, even stranger than last years which was missing my father ( Read more... )