Bad Day

[a_elise]

Time to write again, I'm afraid. I'm having a hard time handling my emotions today. I drank a lot last night and woke up all crazy-headed. Not hungover...just the synapses weren't firing correctly, and that's probably why I was overly sensitive today. So, I go to work and all is pretty normal until the phone rings up at the bar. I answer, and lo

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[onlyjenny]

I'm sorry that you're having to deal with all this shit. I wish I could make it go away for you, but we both know that that's just not how it works. I'm sorry that he's not showing you love, because you deserve to be loved. You ARE loved. I want so badly to tell you the things that will help you heal, help you move on, help you realize that things will get better - I just don't know what those things are. I know all this is hurting you, and that he could be acting in a much more caring way toward you concerning your feelings, but I don't think that's going to happen with someone who has always been very self-involved and selfish. I wish I could make you believe those things about him, but I know it is hard to have a harsh picture of someone you love. Don't know where I'm going with all of this - just want you to know we're here for you.

[a_elise]

Thank you Jennifer. It really means a lot to me. This is the first time I've had my heart broken from a serious, longterm relationship...and I don't think I'd be able to keep my mind if I didn't have good friends like you, Chad, Andrea, and others. I love you very much.