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if only i could articulate in words what she can articulate with fingers, moving up and down itsy bitsy spider-like with metaphor i could only dream of touching. and as for all that talk about setting yourself on fire as a last effort statement, its a great excuse to end a life. because excuses dont always have to be words. i prefer body language. ( Read more... )

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gravity  has not been kind to me ( Read more... )

I gave you half my heart
And now im only half in love
With everything.
And what’s left beats half as hard.

I was holding onto it for you
In many different ways
But you asked for it anyways
So I put a stamp on it and
Mailed it off without a word.

And what are you doing with 
That half of my heart?
Did you use it as a filler
When half of yours was lost?
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I reach into my pocket and pull out two twenty five milligram pills of Adderall and a ten milligram tablet of Desoxyn. I took them from the new orange bottles that showed up in my brother’s room. That was earlier this afternoon. Right now I’m sitting in my car, idling, staring at the dust and dried bugs and bird shit that coat the driver side ( Read more... )

In my dream, I saw mike’s face. It was blonde and familiar. I looked at it so clearly, yet it was hazy, as if it were always held someplace in my mind, but in some obscure peripheral location. The eyes were blue and the skin was healthy looking, glowing, as if preserved by years in snow. Somewhere in the smile I saw myself, and I recognized in the ( Read more... )

today, i am awake!
wide and vigorously so. i never understood until right now that time is actually a magic mirror. all smoke and fog made smooth from solid sand, like that dune the empty man in my head sits atop on his empty bench, never noticing the green of the grey, or the dusty terrain giving way to different shapes, sprouting lamp posts for ( Read more... )

it was big news today that a void was found in space; a giant bubble of emptiness stretching billions of light years in every direction. what i found more newsworthy was the everpresent inability in humans to hold onto the idea of nil. and thinking about the universe, picturing it in its entirety inside my head always places me at a vantage point  ( Read more... )