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>16/5/16 - Here's the truth - I thought good architecture made a good school. I'd much rather attend a reasonably fun hothouse with like minded friends than study with drunks in a lavish palace.
Last month, this girl who used to be my friend left our school, went to the UK and joined some posh girls' boarding school. Her new school looks like this, and she's just started 6th form there.
I am fucking jealous of her. Ever since I was a small kid and I read Second form at Malory Towers or St Clare's or whatever I've always wanted to go to some school like that. Then I got older, found out money existed and forgot all about it. Which is why I am so jealous that someone else gets to live my childhood dream, especially when I feel (no, I am) I'm much, much better at school than she is.
The fucking fees is 12,000 pounds a term. I could never ever afford that, but her family is very rich, good for her. My parents' solution to everything is 'grow up and earn a lot of money' but I can't grow up, earn a lot of money and go back to school, can I?
When I was her friend in our first year she used to absolutely suck at physics and maths (I think she still does). I did pretty much all her homework and assignments for her, partly out of pity, and partly because she was (is) cute and my moneylender at the time. Now, she just gets to drop physics and maths and have it her way, and since our lovely continent is a good many thousand miles away there won't even be anyone to say she's "throwing away her future" and "wasting her parents' money" and she will "regret this later" and blah blah blah.
It won't even matter because her new school is so all rounded, their curriculum includes a 45 minute music lesson every week, art lessons, and as much as I hate sports, stuff like dancing, riding and rowing, which really sounds cool. Of course, my mother who conveniently "forgot to continue" my violin lessons since June, never mind that I've been learning for 12 years, probably thinks studying and grades are the biggest things that matter, right? Her new school has really nice old architecture too, with Hogwartsy wooden doors and gothic windows and everything, not ugly, modern, concrete-and-steel stuff like ours. It makes me want to cry from jealousy.
Of course, I know should be glad I have a place in a good, specialized, hothousey, etc. etc., school which is hard to get into, etc. etc., and actual best friends and friends and everything here (unlike my stupid previous school) which I might not have elsewhere, but I somehow still feel I've gotten a worse deal when I see those pictures.
Last month, this girl who used to be my friend left our school, went to the UK and joined some posh girls' boarding school. Her new school looks like this, and she's just started 6th form there.
I am fucking jealous of her. Ever since I was a small kid and I read Second form at Malory Towers or St Clare's or whatever I've always wanted to go to some school like that. Then I got older, found out money existed and forgot all about it. Which is why I am so jealous that someone else gets to live my childhood dream, especially when I feel (no, I am) I'm much, much better at school than she is.
The fucking fees is 12,000 pounds a term. I could never ever afford that, but her family is very rich, good for her. My parents' solution to everything is 'grow up and earn a lot of money' but I can't grow up, earn a lot of money and go back to school, can I?
When I was her friend in our first year she used to absolutely suck at physics and maths (I think she still does). I did pretty much all her homework and assignments for her, partly out of pity, and partly because she was (is) cute and my moneylender at the time. Now, she just gets to drop physics and maths and have it her way, and since our lovely continent is a good many thousand miles away there won't even be anyone to say she's "throwing away her future" and "wasting her parents' money" and she will "regret this later" and blah blah blah.
It won't even matter because her new school is so all rounded, their curriculum includes a 45 minute music lesson every week, art lessons, and as much as I hate sports, stuff like dancing, riding and rowing, which really sounds cool. Of course, my mother who conveniently "forgot to continue" my violin lessons since June, never mind that I've been learning for 12 years, probably thinks studying and grades are the biggest things that matter, right? Her new school has really nice old architecture too, with Hogwartsy wooden doors and gothic windows and everything, not ugly, modern, concrete-and-steel stuff like ours. It makes me want to cry from jealousy.
Of course, I know should be glad I have a place in a good, specialized, hothousey, etc. etc., school which is hard to get into, etc. etc., and actual best friends and friends and everything here (unlike my stupid previous school) which I might not have elsewhere, but I somehow still feel I've gotten a worse deal when I see those pictures.