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[a_mona_lisa]

"On romantic evenings of self, I go salsa dancing with my confusion

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Why is it that...

[down4fun]

Lindsey, why is that you always seem to need the company of others to make you happy? Your always searching and looking, why are you never satisfied...or so it seems. Your life (in most likelyhood) is wonderful and is filled with adventure large and small, so why does it have to be somewhere else with someone else doing something else? I'm picking up and leaving NH on the 1st of march, on a "whim" and only because I'm not doing anything here and am making no progress. You though are in school and obviously meeting great people...why do you have to leave? These are questions I think you should be asking yourself, I really do. Strangely, my whim to leave is california I purchised the tickets last night. Strange.

Re: Why is it that...

[down4fun]

I also recomend "Utopia" by T. More.

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[a_mona_lisa]

I agree that I am always searching and looking. I am, I always look around and search for things, because life intrigues me, that's that. Lowell, I love the company of people, it makes me laugh, cry, smile, frown, it makes me feel. The human race, and interaction with them make me realize I too, am human, I interact with these people and they give me emotion. It takes two to tango. I also agree that my life is filled with (large and small) adventures, and I am trying to accept my changes and myself, that's the real journey though, finding and accepting and loving ourselves. I like to have people along the trail with me though. They give me revelations about myself, they make me see them with their flaws, and beauty marks, but they also do something else for me. They give me vision on my own flaws and beautiful parts. That's why I love (and perhaps stirve on) the company of others. And the reason my happiness could travel to somewhere else or doing something else is because I want to learn to float with the wind. The only

[hopeful_love]

lindsey- my best advice to give you right now is to just appreciate the life you have.Sure you haven't fallen in love- but who has at our age? We dont need love to fulfill our lives- sure it is nice to feel protected and wanted but that is what our friends are for! You can't go looking for love- love will come looking for you when you least expect it!So just go about your adventure filled life and enjoy it!!

BUT if you decide to move for some crazy reason- me and jillian are going out to california either at the beginning of next year or half way through the year. So if a change of scenery is what you need- i*d be delighted to have you join our excellent adventure!much love<3hill

[a_mona_lisa]

You're right fucking Hillary. That is what our friends are for. I think I was having a day where I felt a little left out with my friends, and it just came from that. But I have realize that not everyday can everything be perfect. Without the bad who really appreciates the good? Exactly.

I would love to join you on your adventure. If it's halfway through the year, I'm so fucking there. How about this, we take Christmas break and spend a whole month up there! That's how long we have off in school, we should definitely spend a winter in Cali, how perfect would it be to wear a fucking skirt in the winter and feel comfortable!

Thanks Hill for being here, and for the advice. Miss you and this summer will be rockin!

[ex_polythen414]

I watched Waking Life earlier, and it made me think of you, and how much I miss you and want nothing more than for you to be happy.

Read High Fidelity by Nick Hornby or something Tom Robbins.
<3

[cvrbsidephropet]

yes, or How to be Good by Nick Hornby.

Lindsey, I read the book My Antonia by Willa Cather, and I think you would love it so much, some of the most intense prose I have ever read.

Read any poetry by Charles Bukowski

read Less than Zero by Brett Easton Ellis

Read "From pent up aching rivers" by Walt Whitman

Listen to the song "Shine on (Mother Robot Son) by Angie Aparo.

Or don't read any of that and do your own thing <3

[a_mona_lisa]

I absolutely love the song Shine On. And thank you for putting "(Mother Robot Son)" because I had no earthly idea what she said then! What a revelation, oh sean!

Thank you for the suggestions, I do indeed have a library card to my hometown public library, and will make a visit first thing when I get into town.

I hope to call sometime soon with your voice on the other line. I talked to Ryan for about 20 minutes the other night, and it felt nice. Miss you guys. See you in the summertime.
<3

[a_mona_lisa]

I miss you too. I haven't seen Waking Life (and still have Sixteen Candles) in a while, perhaps we should set up a date for Holiday break to watch it together (where I may also return your long overdue movie?)!

I am loving reading your posts lately. You are (I won't say it, but you know what I mean) definitely feeling happy, and that makes me happy. This break I am going to paint like I've never painted before. I am changing my major the moment I get back to Art also. I don't know what the fuck I'm going to do, but I just don't care anymore, I'm ready to do what I want to do.

love you

[cptn_morg]

lindsey. do whatever the fuck you feel you need to. i love and support you. i think you are intelligent enough to know your wants and needs, so just go with it.

ps
i didnt get to see your mom and lost your sisters cell number to call her. please send her my apologies.

[a_mona_lisa]

ali, i will tell her that you send apologies. she will forgive you and make you take a trip to austin to visit her sometime before the next year is up. i will also take part in this forcing of the wonderful ali rung to take a trip to the great texas for another vacation with the coolest bitch in the world. (that was a huge huge run-on, and i love it).

thanks for the support. i can always count on my ali to be there. you would stand on that cliff with me looking over the edge and if i said jump, you'd hold my hand and we'd go for it; (your) eyes open, or (mine) closed, whichever. and i fucking love you for that. not many of you come around these days, and i'm always grateful i met you that day freshmen year.

thanks for being such a fucking bad-ass bitch ali rung. you rock my world, you really really do. and don't forget, when it feels like everyone has turned around to face away, and you're alone in the middle, i'm here, you know my number.

<3

[cptn_morg]

wow. if i cried, i would. i am so going down there.