things are looking up. heres what happened.

we started to talk and things got heated. same as usual. i told him things that i felt and he expressed his views also. phew. it kinda felt good to get that off my chest to him. he asked if i wanted him to leave. i didnt say anything, because i didnt want to be a sissy and say no, but i wanted to scare ( Read more... )

the one thing that i HAD....

i think i just lost it about 45 minutes ago.

IT IS

BEAUTIFUL

OUTSIDE!

I

LOVE

THIS

WEATHER!

im very surprised with myself tonight. i have gotten tons and TONS of things done. i get this urge to do things mostly only at night/early mornings.

= REdecorated my bathroom/bedroom safari style. i have to work with what i got. it looks nice though.

= cleaned bathroom at the same time

= put a load of laundry in.

= started dishwasher and swept and ( Read more... )

                       im not really sure what im doing.

i hate mean people and they use to piss me off. now, its like im the mean one to everyone. i cant seem to figure it out though. like, EVERYONE keeps getting mad at me. i try so damn hard to be nice. but i always seem to fuck it up. i wish i could start everything over again and make things ( Read more... )

( .why did i do this?. )

( .what about me??. )

im not so sure what to do anymore.

this is NOT working for me anymore.

theres this one thing that ive known about for like 3 days. and i just keep forgetting to write about it.

IM NOT GOING TO IOWA!

calebs on 'probation'(sp?) for 90 days. so in other words, he cant take off or anything for that long. im kinda glad though. no 16 hours of hell. and no meetin a LARGE group of people i dont know.

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heres my daily schedule, monday through friday...

caleb leaves at 9:45pm. so here i am. moday through friday. i go to sleep around 3. jody gets here with madison at 6:45am. caleb gets home at 8am. caleb leaves at 1:15 to go to school. jody picks madison up at 4:30. caleb leaves from school at 9:20 to go to work at 11. im here...all over again. same ( Read more... )