to blog or not to blog?! (if you don't want to read about complaints don't read)

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that is the question...i have decided to post...or blog...because well...so much is going on right now that i can't even think straight...and when i really do think...it's as if nothing is going on at all... it's as if i am falling and there is nothing that is strong enough to catch me at the bottom of this bottomless pit and i have nothing to hope for. for some reason i keep getting reminded of the scars i carry around and what caused them. i am being reminded of how evil i was over a year ago. i just feel uncomfortable inside of my own body and i just want out. i want to escape from everything...just for a short while...and be alone...just sit alone and ponder life, and the world and then..after a while...just sitting and thinking...and want someone to come up behind me...wrap his arms around me and tell me everything is going to be ok...and feel reassured. but what i want is only a dream, that i know will never come true. because it is very rare that my dreams come true. and sometimes i think that there is nothing to live for...except those 4 people i know really care about me. and i hate that i am wasting the summer by thinking so negatively...it's like i don't want to have fun with loved ones...but i really do..i want to spend all the time in the world with amanda, christine, alex, anna, and julian, because they are the best, and i love them..and need them. without them i would be nothing. not that i'm anything but an object that takes up space...but still..i don't know..i need those 5 people...6 including pennie...and 7 including my mother..because right now...i feel lost in this huge massive world...and it's not a good feeling at all...


a) Get a pen
b) Get a paper
c) Number it 1-13!
d) Answer these questions!

1. What's your favorite color out of:
A. Green
B. Blue
C. Orange
D. Black
E. Pink

2. What color is your hair?
A. Blonde/Dirty Blonde
B. Brown
C. Red
D. Black
E. Bald or any other color

3. What color are your eyes?
A. Hazel
B. Green
C. Brown
D. Blue
E. Gray

4. What is your favorite sport out of:
A. Basketball
B. Cheerleading
C. Football
D. Soccer
E. Baseball

5. What's your favorite way to talk?
A. Phone
B. In Person
C. Instant Message
D. E-mail
E. Letters (Mail)

6. What is your favorite kinda music out of:
A. Rap
B. Country
C. Hard Rock
D. Pop
E. General Rock

7. Who's your favorite singer out of:
A. Ludacris
B. Tim McGraw
C. Ozzy Osbourne
D. Nsync
E. Shakira

8. What's your favorite show out of:
A. Meet The Barkers (MTV)
B. The Simpsons
C. SpongeBob SquarePants
D. Surviver
E. The Osbournes

9. What's your favorite movie out of:
A. Not Another Teen Movie
B. Joy Ride
C. I Know What You Did Last Summer
D. Forest Gump
E. Shrek

10. What month were you born?
January-February-March-April-May-June-July-August-September-October-November-December

11. Name a person of the opposite sex.

12. Name a person of the same sex.

13. Now make a wish! (you have to write this down or
it wont work!)

-*Answers*-

1. Green- Fun to be around
Blue- Stylish
Orange- Funky
Black- Lonely
Pink- Sweet

2. Blonde/Dirty Blonde- Hyper
Brown- Casual
Red- Tough
Black- Holds back feelings
Bald or any other color- Free Spirit

3. Hazel- Out Going
Green- Happy
Brown- Loud
Blue- Cute
Gray-Unpredictable

4. Basketball- Direct
Cheerleading- Never Gives Up
Football- Watchful
Soccer- Nice
Baseball- Loveable

5. Phone- Busy a lot of the time
In Person- Social able
Instant Message- A Leader
E-mail- Has a lot of friends
Letters (Mail)- Has many thoughts

6. Rap- Friendly
Country- Cute
Hard Rock- Wild
Pop- unoriginal
General Rock- Pretty cool to hang around

7. Ludacris- Loves to Party
Tim McGraw- Sexy
Ozzy Osbourne- Awesome
N'sync- boring
Shakira- Fun

8. Meet The Barkers- Awesome
The Simpsons- Funny
Sponge Bob Square Pants- Cool
Surviver- Adventurous
The Osbournes- Knows how to have a great time

9. Not Another Teen Movie- Knows who they are
Joy Ride- Cool
I Know What You Did Last Summer- Fun
Forest Gump- Has a big heart
Shrek- oRiGinaL

10. January- Funny
February- Loveable
March- Loves to be noticed a lot
April- Easy going
May- Loves to be around a lot of people
June- Stylish
July- Rude
August- A good friend
September- Loves to flirt
October- Strict
November-Nice
December-Sweet

11. That Person *Will* fall in love with you if you
put this on ur lj

12. This person *Will* become your enemy if you don't
put this on ur lj..noo!!

13. This wish *Will* come true if you put this on ur site