"I'll never leave you William, you know you're stuck with me."
I wanted to keep her with me, but I knew, somehow I knew, and she knew. I wasn't going to let her go, I was going to keep her close to me.
"I told you, we'll be together for fifty years or more, we're stuck together till we drive each other insane, and then some."
I felt my self break, I closed my eyes tight and willed the pain away, her pain, mine I could handle. I wanted hers to be over.
I could feel her tears soak through my shirt, leaving a bitter coolness on my chest, reminded me of the numbness that was overtaking my heart.
"I'm cold. I-I don't get c-co-old...I h-haven't been cold for years...almost forgot what it felt like..."
I stroked her hair.
"Shhh, love, shhh ..."
I rocked her slowly in my arms, attempting to keep the tears at bay. Years ago if someone told me I'd be sitting here, holding her dying body in my arms sobbing, I woulda slit their throats. But here I was.
Looking him over I wondered if the right choice was made. "You? You're the champion we seek? Sitting here, sobbing like a child and covered in blood? You're not a worrier, you're...weak."
I walked closer, ignoring him and looking at the girl. "Changes are so hard, the former May Queen didn't fair well either." I was speaking to myself, jotting memories in my own mind of future occurrences. "She will do. She will serve and serve well."
Glancing at the vampire distastefully. "Leave." I had no time for pleasantries, if I had such a use for them. There was much to do and no time for it.
"You? You're the champion we seek? Sitting here, sobbing like a child and covered in blood? You're not a worrier, you're...weak."
I looked up at the woman with a fierce glare. I wasn't ready to let go of Tara.
"You shut your mouth bitch. Or I'll bloody well rip your throat out."
I was seething with hatred for her, she was the only being I was able to blaim, and she didn't seem surprised. It had been her.
"Changes are so hard, the former May Queen didn't fair well either. She will do. She will serve and serve well."
"You did this!" I yelled at her, feeling the rage build inside me.
"You couldn't just let her be. Couldn't let her live where she belonged could you?"
She surveyed Tara and then turned her gaze to me.
"Leave." That was it. I carefully laid Tara down and stood up coming face to face with the woman. I growled and pulled back to punch her, but my hand swept through her
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"Your attempts do nothing to amuse me vampire. I will and am doing what I want with her. It is meant to be, it has already started. You can do nothing to stop it."
I watched with slight amusement as he picked the girls dead mortal body up like he was trying to protect it from some monster.
"You pick your enimies with illease. I am not your foe."
My eyes shifted to the girl and I watched as her body started to rot and decay away. If I was mortal the look on his face would have effected me.
I don't know what happened when everything faded but the pain stopped and I wasn't covered in blood any more. My shoulder was healed and I looked and felt normal.
And different.
Nobody told me. I just knew what was happening and why. They chose me. I was chosen to carry the visions and to help others.
But I wasn't human anymore, at least not fully. I was part demon. Amusing how I was now one of the things I feared I was most as a child. But now, it was for the greater good.
Even better was that they chose Spike to be my partner. He was to carry out whatever came to pass, prevent the harmful things that I saw.
I felt him as I came closer to The Powers and Spike. I could feel his pain and it hurt me that I caused it. I stopped a few feet from them, amazed at his passion and anger. Nervously I licked my lips before I spoke. "S-spike..."
I was waiting for an answer from them when I heard it.
"S-spike..."
I turned and saw her. Without thinking I was in front of her, arms wrapped tightly around her, I kissed her neck, her shoulder, took her hands, finally I looked into her eye.
I didn't want to waste time by asking how, so I kissed her. Everything inside me screamed for her. Finally I pulled back.
"Thought I'd lost you. Thought ... Something's different"
I looked at her, studying her eyes, there wasn't anything I could see. I was worried, but elated that she was here and I could touch her. I wasn't letting go again.
Like a flash he was holding me and kissing me and my heart felt so big I thought it was going to burst out of my chest.
He kissed me and I tightened my arms around him, kissing him back, melting into his arms and feeling so good again.
"Thought I'd lost you. Thought ... Something's different"
I grinned at him. "I told you silly, you'll never be rid of me. We're stuck together." I licked my lips and nodded. "Yes, I'm different." I bit my bottom lip and looked down at my feet. "They made me a demon...w-well partly..." I looked up at him and grinned. "I'm a seer, I get the visions now, to help people."
Laughing I looked up at him. "Someone finally saw me."
"But you love her...it's too soon? You've only been h-here a few months Spike. I-I've been here longer, a lot longer, and I've gotten to see her move on and I've dealt with it and..."
So it was about Buffy. Dammit! No one ever thought that maybe she wasn't all he ever thought about.
"I do love Buffy, won't lie to you there pet, but I'm not in love with her. She's always going to be on the inside because I'd be a git if I didn't care bout her after everything that happened. She was an ideal to me, that pedistal you talked about. Did it with Dru, same with the slayer. But because of that I can't possibly love you? Can't think about you every single instant we've been together?"
"I don't want to get hurt."
I took a step forward.
"I'd bloody stake myself before I hurt you Tara. Don't think I even knew it all till I almost lost ya. Woulda given anything to stop your pain, woulda kissed the sun for you to be alright, to give you peace keep you from pain. Woulda done anything ..."
I smiled and moved closer to him, wrapping my arms around his waist. "There will be no kissing the sun." I said firmly. "I do know what you can kiss though..." I grinned and leaned up to kiss him, my lips brushed against his and I felt him pull me to him.
Pulling back I looked up into his eyes, running my hand over his face. "I'm in love with you...I don't remember when I wasn't." I kept my arms around his waist and rested my head on his chest. "We have a lifetime ahead of us, start fresh and all." I took his hand in mine and gave it a small squeeze. "Whenever you want to go."
I kissed her, slowly, letting everything pour into it. Every detail, every second was like heaven. Was damn glad I'd gotten my soul on my own instead of that pansy curse of Angel's cause my moment of happiness woulda been right then.
"Don't care when or where if your with me."
I pulled her to me, just hugging her. Had come so close to losing her. No I had lost her, she'd died in my bloody arms, it was everything to know she was real now.
Woulda felt like a ponce, love sick fool like the slayer had made me out to be, but it was different. I'd realized it from the beginning, she was anything but Buffy or Dru. She was different, didn't care what she said she was better than the lot of them. Always had been.
I hugged him back equally hard. I didn't know how long we were apart for but it felt like forever. Then again when you spend three solid months together with someone the first time you're apart is bound to feel like it.
I smiled and traced my hand over his shirt, noticing a button was missing before looking at my palm. There was the faintest scar where one of his buttons broke the skin of my hand. It proved to me this was all real.
Looking up at him I nodded. "Yeah, as long as you want us to be." I took his hand and held it tightly. I knew we had to leave through the door but I was afraid too. I felt like our happiness was vaccum sealed and opening it and letting the world in would taint or spoil it.
I turned and faced him, my knees up against his side. "They chose you because you're...the best there is." I grinned. "Ok, I'm biased. Deal." I licked my lips and tried to ignore the blatent flirting he was doing with his hand over the bare skin of my back and stomach. "You are a true champion. You're better then Angel would ever hope to be."
The look he gave me I wish I had a camera. It was preiceless. "You, a vampire. One of the worse, let's be honest here. And you went of your own free will for you soul. That show's you're a great man Spike. Angelus...he had to be cursed with his. There's a big difference..."
I ran my hand over his face. "What you do, who you are; makes me smile, makes me happy inside." Makes me proud to be yours.
"Gotta tell you pet. Always enjoyed being put higher than the poof, but even I can respect the things he's done. Don't think I'm better, we're just different."
Would never tell him that though.
"Wanna keep making you happy, forever if I can love."
I pulled her over so she was on my lap and kissed her, couldn't ever get tired of kissing her, touching her. Didn't realize I was, eh, excited until she pressed against me.
I shook my head. "I'm not putting down what Angel's done, he's done a lot. But the fact that you did the one thing he could never do. You tamed the demon and took control. That says a lot."
I grinned at him wickedly. "You can, for as long as you want." My eyes fluttered closed as his hands wondered my body. I wasn't going to say that even though I was part demon I still was mortal. I had a life-span now.
My eyes went wide when I felt him pressing against me. "Ohhh..." I nervously licked my lips and rested my head in the crook of his neck. "Ummm maybe we should watch a movie or ummm go sleep..."
"We can do that love. Wouldn't mind just holding ya for a while."
Wasn't sure she realized I'd seen her die in my arms. I wasn't quite ready to let go of her. In fact I didn't even want to think about not holding her, made a knot form in my stomach.
"Not looking to push, can't exactly control that." I nodded downward and reminded her with a grin.
"Specially with you involved."
I moved my hand up to her hair, lightly running it through her hair. Didn't want this to end, didn't want reality and duty to bust in on the moment.
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I wanted to keep her with me, but I knew, somehow I knew, and she knew. I wasn't going to let her go, I was going to keep her close to me.
"I told you, we'll be together for fifty years or more, we're stuck together till we drive each other insane, and then some."
I felt my self break, I closed my eyes tight and willed the pain away, her pain, mine I could handle. I wanted hers to be over.
I could feel her tears soak through my shirt, leaving a bitter coolness on my chest, reminded me of the numbness that was overtaking my heart.
"I'm cold. I-I don't get c-co-old...I h-haven't been cold for years...almost forgot what it felt like..."
I stroked her hair.
"Shhh, love, shhh ..."
I rocked her slowly in my arms, attempting to keep the tears at bay. Years ago if someone told me I'd be sitting here, holding her dying body in my arms sobbing, I woulda slit their throats. But here I was.
"T-this isn't right...t-this can't happen. I-I just...I don't understand...I-I ( ... )
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I walked closer, ignoring him and looking at the girl. "Changes are so hard, the former May Queen didn't fair well either." I was speaking to myself, jotting memories in my own mind of future occurrences. "She will do. She will serve and serve well."
Glancing at the vampire distastefully. "Leave." I had no time for pleasantries, if I had such a use for them. There was much to do and no time for it.
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I looked up at the woman with a fierce glare. I wasn't ready to let go of Tara.
"You shut your mouth bitch. Or I'll bloody well rip your throat out."
I was seething with hatred for her, she was the only being I was able to blaim, and she didn't seem surprised. It had been her.
"Changes are so hard, the former May Queen didn't fair well either. She will do. She will serve and serve well."
"You did this!" I yelled at her, feeling the rage build inside me.
"You couldn't just let her be. Couldn't let her live where she belonged could you?"
She surveyed Tara and then turned her gaze to me.
"Leave." That was it. I carefully laid Tara down and stood up coming face to face with the woman. I growled and pulled back to punch her, but my hand swept through her ( ... )
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I watched with slight amusement as he picked the girls dead mortal body up like he was trying to protect it from some monster.
"You pick your enimies with illease. I am not your foe."
My eyes shifted to the girl and I watched as her body started to rot and decay away. If I was mortal the look on his face would have effected me.
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And different.
Nobody told me. I just knew what was happening and why. They chose me. I was chosen to carry the visions and to help others.
But I wasn't human anymore, at least not fully. I was part demon. Amusing how I was now one of the things I feared I was most as a child. But now, it was for the greater good.
Even better was that they chose Spike to be my partner. He was to carry out whatever came to pass, prevent the harmful things that I saw.
I felt him as I came closer to The Powers and Spike. I could feel his pain and it hurt me that I caused it. I stopped a few feet from them, amazed at his passion and anger. Nervously I licked my lips before I spoke. "S-spike..."
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"S-spike..."
I turned and saw her. Without thinking I was in front of her, arms wrapped tightly around her, I kissed her neck, her shoulder, took her hands, finally I looked into her eye.
I didn't want to waste time by asking how, so I kissed her. Everything inside me screamed for her. Finally I pulled back.
"Thought I'd lost you. Thought ... Something's different"
I looked at her, studying her eyes, there wasn't anything I could see. I was worried, but elated that she was here and I could touch her. I wasn't letting go again.
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He kissed me and I tightened my arms around him, kissing him back, melting into his arms and feeling so good again.
"Thought I'd lost you. Thought ... Something's different"
I grinned at him. "I told you silly, you'll never be rid of me. We're stuck together." I licked my lips and nodded. "Yes, I'm different." I bit my bottom lip and looked down at my feet. "They made me a demon...w-well partly..." I looked up at him and grinned. "I'm a seer, I get the visions now, to help people."
Laughing I looked up at him. "Someone finally saw me."
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I held her close, unwilling to let her go.
"Promise?"
"Yes, I'm different. They made me a demon...w-well partly... I'm a seer, I get the visions now, to help people."
I nodded, just taking in her form. It hadn't been more than 10 minutes she'd been gone but it had seemed like an eternity.
"Said I'm the new champion or something like that. Didn't want this for you pet, you don't need to be tied to this world. You deserve peace."
I pushed a stray strand of hair behind her ear.
"Don't wanna let you go."
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So it was about Buffy. Dammit! No one ever thought that maybe she wasn't all he ever thought about.
"I do love Buffy, won't lie to you there pet, but I'm not in love with her. She's always going to be on the inside because I'd be a git if I didn't care bout her after everything that happened. She was an ideal to me, that pedistal you talked about. Did it with Dru, same with the slayer. But because of that I can't possibly love you? Can't think about you every single instant we've been together?"
"I don't want to get hurt."
I took a step forward.
"I'd bloody stake myself before I hurt you Tara. Don't think I even knew it all till I almost lost ya. Woulda given anything to stop your pain, woulda kissed the sun for you to be alright, to give you peace keep you from pain. Woulda done anything ..."
Looked at her wondering if she was hearing me.
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Pulling back I looked up into his eyes, running my hand over his face. "I'm in love with you...I don't remember when I wasn't." I kept my arms around his waist and rested my head on his chest. "We have a lifetime ahead of us, start fresh and all." I took his hand in mine and gave it a small squeeze. "Whenever you want to go."
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"Don't care when or where if your with me."
I pulled her to me, just hugging her. Had come so close to losing her. No I had lost her, she'd died in my bloody arms, it was everything to know she was real now.
Woulda felt like a ponce, love sick fool like the slayer had made me out to be, but it was different. I'd realized it from the beginning, she was anything but Buffy or Dru. She was different, didn't care what she said she was better than the lot of them. Always had been.
"You an' me then love?"
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I smiled and traced my hand over his shirt, noticing a button was missing before looking at my palm. There was the faintest scar where one of his buttons broke the skin of my hand. It proved to me this was all real.
Looking up at him I nodded. "Yeah, as long as you want us to be." I took his hand and held it tightly. I knew we had to leave through the door but I was afraid too. I felt like our happiness was vaccum sealed and opening it and letting the world in would taint or spoil it.
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The look he gave me I wish I had a camera. It was preiceless. "You, a vampire. One of the worse, let's be honest here. And you went of your own free will for you soul. That show's you're a great man Spike. Angelus...he had to be cursed with his. There's a big difference..."
I ran my hand over his face. "What you do, who you are; makes me smile, makes me happy inside." Makes me proud to be yours.
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"Gotta tell you pet. Always enjoyed being put higher than the poof, but even I can respect the things he's done. Don't think I'm better, we're just different."
Would never tell him that though.
"Wanna keep making you happy, forever if I can love."
I pulled her over so she was on my lap and kissed her, couldn't ever get tired of kissing her, touching her. Didn't realize I was, eh, excited until she pressed against me.
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I grinned at him wickedly. "You can, for as long as you want." My eyes fluttered closed as his hands wondered my body. I wasn't going to say that even though I was part demon I still was mortal. I had a life-span now.
My eyes went wide when I felt him pressing against me. "Ohhh..." I nervously licked my lips and rested my head in the crook of his neck. "Ummm maybe we should watch a movie or ummm go sleep..."
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Wasn't sure she realized I'd seen her die in my arms. I wasn't quite ready to let go of her. In fact I didn't even want to think about not holding her, made a knot form in my stomach.
"Not looking to push, can't exactly control that." I nodded downward and reminded her with a grin.
"Specially with you involved."
I moved my hand up to her hair, lightly running it through her hair. Didn't want this to end, didn't want reality and duty to bust in on the moment.
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