why...?

[a_young_legend]

[private, difficult to hack by friends]

I should've hated her.

She was cold. Heartless, even. Everyone always spread rumors about her. How she didn't belong here. How she wasn't even human. I tried to avoid her as much as I could, because the way she would look at you, with those piercing eyes of hers... she was terrifying. Then, she turned on us,

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[seedwlives2spar]

Shinji... do you wish to speak about what happened today?

[a_young_legend]

Is there anything left to say?

[seedwlives2spar]

Perhaps, perhaps not. But sometimes saying nothing is the worst thing one can do. It does not matter if what you speak about is important in and of itself, sometimes the act of talking about something itself is helpful.

[a_young_legend]

Why am I mourning someone who would've seen us all dead? It doesn't matter if she ultimately did the right thing. She still put everyone in danger. And she was still as icy as they came.

So why then, Kira? To see someone die, and you're helpless to do anything to intervene...

Why does it hurt so much inside?

He didn't hack, he just noticed that Shinji seems like he's been better

[ensign_in_love]

Hey, Shinji.

How's it going?

[a_young_legend]

Not so great, but I'm doing alright for now. You?

[ensign_in_love]

Things are, understandably, pretty heavy around here, lately, but I'm doing alright, all things considered.

[a_young_legend]

Aren't they always? I think you get used to it after awhile. Don't mind me, I'm just complaining. It's kind of a teenager's shtick, you know? School and simulations at NERV have been keeping me pretty busy in the meantime. Anything interesting on your end?

Hacked. Also private.

[red_devil_02]

...

...this is why I hate people like that, you know.

[a_young_legend]

You seem to hate a lot of people, Asuka. It can be hard to tell the difference.

Did you ever get a chance to speak with her? Lamia, I mean.

[red_devil_02]

A little. She'd bother me about something technical sometimes.

But you know what I mean. People who just throw their lives away like that. If you treat yourself like you're disposable, why even bother...

[a_young_legend]

I used to be that way, too. And maybe, to some degree... I still am. Fighting the Angels inside things that are arguably even bigger monsters themselves is close enough to suicide as it is.

Besides, if we weren't as special as we were... we'd be disposable to NERV also.

Gotta keep earning more Shinji Points, Kaworu!

[srw_u_mods]

It's been said that murder isn't a crime against the victim, it's a crime against the people who loved the victim. That's why so many religions forbid suicide. Did you know that?

go for the gay!harem end IMO

[a_young_legend]

I... I suppose so. Though I wouldn't really say anybody loved her. Except maybe that creepy janitor guy, but now he's gone, too. I'm not really the religious sort, though, so I didn't know. How about you?

You're a harem of one, Shinji-kun

[srw_u_mods]

I think... if there is a God, then no living human would be able to comprehend his thought processes. When a preacher speaks of God's will, does that not imply the ability to understand the divine on its own level? How narcissistic.

At least I'm not gaohwait

[a_young_legend]

This guy totally goes over my head, but... I feel drawn to him, somehow... dammit, this is just plain weird.

I-I agree. We're probably not meant to understand things like that; I mean, if we were, couldn't anyone theoretically be God? I also think those evangelical types are totally bogus, who think God spoke to them or whatever.

But really, I don't pretend to know it all when it comes to saintly matters. And nobody should.