I'm now officially taking Capoeira! That is the seventh type of martial arts I will be learning. The other six go like this Kung fu, Kempo, Chi Na, Karate, Tai Chi, and Kick boxing. My body is going to fall apart soon. I can't wait till April twenty-third. Its a kick boxing tournament with thirty-two people. Its done like a pyramid. That means I ( Read more... )

I had a lot fun today. We training for a long time. I love to listen to Yans insight on everything. I could listen to him talk forever! He makes me feel so ignorant. Yan is very cultured. He know like twelve languages, and the history of every country. I don't think I have ever asked him a question that he didn't have an answer for. Its really ( Read more... )

Today was a long day... It was one of those days when your waiting so long for one moment.. Just one moment that will never come! Its a pretty disappointing thing. I realized I had a migraine, but it didn't hurt. Its almost impossible to explain what it felt like. Lately I've been kind of loosing it. I collapsed in Michael's today. (The arts and ( Read more... )

There may not be a tomorrow, Because there sure as hell wasn't one today!

I have a problem with hurting myself, and people that mean a lot to me. My life is like a really badly written poem. I don't know how else to explain it. I turn around, and fairy dust is flying around my head with my shoes talking to me. I don't understand the stuff that is happening to me these days. I just apologize to anyone who gets wrapped up ( Read more... )

God likes to fuck with me. Not the bad kind of fuck. Like the dumb kid that you don't know prank calling your house, but the amusing kind of fuck. Such as your best friend telling you that your Mom just died in a car reck. Waits till you freak out, and start getting erosional to tell you he was just joking. I sure I will find a lot of this amusing ( Read more... )

I feel like there is such a big void in my life, or a lot of little voids. Unfortunately its hard to feel voids, but I know what I need to do. Its just drowning out the fear that will be the hard part. I feel that I've become two people. One is who I really am. The other is trying to control who I really am so I don't lose everything. (Chuck ( Read more... )

Pound away.... Pound.. pound away. MY head really hurts...