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abbagirl

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Feb 01, 2009 20:01

Okay, I really need to stop looking at lots of people's pics and things from the Xena con this weekend (particularly of certain people), because it is by association triggering all kinds of painful memories and thoughts and obsessions and now I am having an emotional breakdown and freaking out. :( Why do I always torture myself by deliberately ( Read more... )

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abbagirl February 2 2009, 01:14:19 UTC

No, it's not you at all...sigh. This whole week and weekend I've been aware of the con coming up, and thinking about it, and reading about it (heck, even talking about it, with Penny and such especially), and it's unfortunately exacerbated my unhealthy thoughts about, um, related things. Ugh. It's so stupid.

It's an anniversary of two things...of he and I truly becoming a couple, and him and her becoming a couple. :( And I'm the loser for still being bothered by it all.

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abbagirl February 2 2009, 01:25:25 UTC

Coffee-getting? I did do that once, at the NY con, only cuz bunkey suggested it...sigh. At least he actually isn't ashamed to be openly an affectionate couple with her at these things, unlike with me...he refused to even hold my hand if any fans were around, cons became a really lonely, weird affair. :( I was suddenly no longer a part of the fans, but I didn't get to really be with him, either.

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esotericgrl February 2 2009, 03:54:37 UTC

good luck friend. i am so sorry things are hard for you. just know that even though we do not know each other well, i consider you a friend, and if i were in NY, i would try to help you and make you feel happy. keep your chin up:)

obstinate_lib February 2 2009, 09:19:50 UTC

I'm sorry you're feeling depressed dear. Maybe just look back on all the great times you had at all the conventions you went to and hold on to those memories. I was so close to going this year, but talk of layoffs has been circulating around at work and my money situation isn't that great these days, so I felt asking for a day off or two wasn't the best choice right now. My girlfriend even agreed to go along if I still wanted to drive down there. I would've loved to share a XenaCon experience with her. Argh. Next year, for sure. I'm also trying to avoid reading all the con reports and looking at the pictures because I just know all of it will make me regret not going and yearn for another awesome con experience, even though I know I made the right decision for me this year in not going. Hey, maybe I'll see you at a future convention. :-)

kevenn February 2 2009, 14:50:24 UTC

Another voice here to say that you are so much better off without him. Dude, you're in New York! You're like a modern-day Mary Tyler Moore - you are going to make it after all!

My hat's off to you, lovely Miss. You are amazing. :)

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lucubratrix February 3 2009, 19:27:27 UTC

I wanted to agree 100% with both of these posts! It's completely normal to take a while to get over a breakup of a big meaningful relationship in your life, so you (Sarah) shouldn't be beating yourself up over the fact that you're still hurting about it. Of course you're not over it yet, it was your first serious romantic relationship and also it had a less-than-amicable breakup associated with it! Not that any breakup is ever happy, but the particular way in which he handled it is I think potentially extra-hurtful (i.e. it's a bit uncanny how his new girlfriend is in many respects so similar, and how he's treating the other girlfriend in totally different ways from how he treated you ( ... )