and blue, i was thinking about that holding on to emotional things we were talking about and i realized that most of the times i think i was guilty of it, i was actually TRYING to sustain my anger...i do the thing where i'd rather not be angry at someone whether they deserve it or not so i let go at the slightest possible escape hatch too so if i ( Read more... )

and i'm wondering, that since it mostly seems like all i wanna do when i think about writing in it is bitch, that isn't this just gonna end up being one of those passive girl tricks where we dump all our stuff somewhere it doesn't belong instead of taking care of things in a real and substansive way? especially considering i know who's gonna read ( Read more... )

so tom says that project hope may be hiring someone to do hiv prevention and they'd train me and i wouldn't go out by myself at first. hmmm. time to get a real job? he also says it wouldn't pay much, but it's gotta be at least twice what i get now. i suppose the worst thing that could happen if i hate it is i quit...and getting trained to do ( Read more... )

so i don't really want to post anything while i'm drunk that i didn't otherwise...but some guy at the lark just butchered joey, so i'll post the CORRECT lyrics anyhow ( Read more... )

as long as i'm making lists, i'll do this one too, as i lost the original when i let my palm pilot die (i'd make a baad tomagatchi mom ( Read more... )

we'll call this SPP #1 1/2

being afraid to make phone calls. it's really annoying. even if you know exactly what your reasons for it are. just thought i'd share.

the experiment is, how long can i keep this journal thing up...i give it a week ( Read more... )

this is my first entry