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[abient]

When I'm on my medication I am likable and energetic and generally happy. I like myself better when I am medicated. But I'm not me. Even now I can't feel-really feel-what this means. Now, it's just a strange thing to say. I was worried that the pills would keep me from feeling much of anything, but Tuesday night there was an older man with a

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[soundboards]

soundboards on April 7th, 2008 01:09 am (UTC)
I feel you on that shit. I like myself better when I'm on medication, but I just don't feel like I'm being myself. I don't know how to discern where real me starts and medicated me begins. I know I've still got the same toes, the same hair and eyes, but I know there's something different about me when I'm on medication. I've been on it for so long I don't even remember what I was like pre-medication. I agree that I'm generally happy and likable when I am on my medication, but I just wonder if this is who I'm going to be for the rest of my life, or if one day I'll be able to come off of it.

Certain things that have nothing to do with my life seem to affect me more. I get easily upset, but not at people, just situations and things. For instance, I got really worked up over something I saw on the news the other day.

I just wish I could have some understanding of why I am the way I am.

Sorry if this sounds totally ridiculous; I slept all day and am having trouble forming coherent thoughts.

[prozacdelusion]

Totally know what you are saying on this one, but I've come to the conclusion that I'd rather be a little unlike myself and medicated (and presumably happier) than depressed and mad at the world. It's a hard line to walk, but this is what I have to do for now...

-maria

[parvardigar]

erin, i just really really want to tell you that you inspire me. like idk how to say this, but i think you might be my idol.

~lol~

ANYWAY. i don't know. i don't know anything about this. my dad asked me if i wanted to get some antidepressants and because i like to take pills, i said sure but i doubt that'll come to anything. so basically this comment is worthless but that's okay cos you like poison and i am still laughing at you.

[abient]

liking bret michaels =/= liking poison

i mean of course i have every rose has its thorn in my itunes BUT THAT IS IT

also, greta.. i'm gonna put something out there and if you like it, you can take it; if you don't, you can send it right back..

i wanna be on you

[parvardigar]

what song is the lawyers guns and money song?

[parvardigar]

also i watched rock of love last night.

and erin? ....

[leadhindenburg]

Next time that happens, invite him to come over! He might appreciate that. That way, he has human contact, and you don't have to feel bad because somebody else is down.