Pub night went really well! I had a good time, had a real laugh with everyone. When i got home i continued speaking to Thomas on MSN till like 2.30AM. And we are going on a date next week woop!  Bye bye Rich! Time i went out with someone who gives a shit about me and doesn't treat me like shit! Hopefully it will go well....i guess you'll just have ( Read more... )

 Spoke to Thomas again last night  on MSN chatted till the early hours about complete bullshit lol was fun hope he comes online tonight. I also spoke to Rich on MSN again - now i know everyone wants to shoot me for this (Beth especially) but i ended up giving him advice about his ex that he's still in love with after two years. I guess, i just ( Read more... )

I typed this once but i accidently deleted it before i posted it - doh!

Well, i've been without the internet for a few days (our phone line went down) which has driven me mad lol Rich did come round and at 3pm instead on 8pm. He brought a bunch of flowers, and apologized over and over again. We talked, rather uncomfortably. I explained what ( Read more... )

 Well i continued to ignore Rich last night on MSN - he said "look i'm sorry" but i didn't reply. I guess it just seems like an unheartfelt apology. He tried to get shitty with me and said "fine i'll tell my mum i can't help her tommorow and come round and see you. i'll be round at 8." I couldn't help but answer, telling him not to emotionally ( Read more... )

Spoke to Rich, he made out he was so sorry and felt so guilty. i said i didn't want to talk about it on MSN - he said he cant see me today or tommorow because he's starting his new job - how can he priortise when everything has equal priorities?? ME NEARLY DYING IS AS IMPORTANT AS HIS NEW JOB.

IF I HAD THE CONSCIENCE TO KILL HIM I WOULD.

Blah just watching the diana concert on TV. No word from Rich - hands up who's suprised? Not me. Boy when i next see him is he going to suffer i don't even care if he's worth it. Feeling better today, haven't taken any pain killers although i have a horrible headache that won't shift - i'm probably just uptight..anyway if there are any developments ( Read more... )

 Not much to report today - pain is getting better and i was able to wash my hair by myself today yay! I watched Jimmy in Jekyll which was fantastic - i was hooked although if i'm honest Gina Bellman got on my nerves. I then saw him on Dame Edna which was very funny..

Rich is supposed to get back tonight, but it seems unlikely. There was a car that ( Read more... )

Well, i woke up at 11.15 today, didn't take any pain killers although the pain was pretty bad..just want to be okay arrrg! At 11.30 Nathalie*, my counseller, rang me (i text her and asked for a phone consultation after what's happend). It helped a lot, it was just nice to talk to someone outside the situation. She said she was impressed with me - ( Read more... )

I didn't get the part. I'm devastated. I was hysterical when i found out - how pathetic is that? It was probably more than that - mum had given me a leaflet about Eptopic Pregnancy, to help me understand it, and i think everything all just got to me. This feels like the final nail in the coffin - but i'm not quite sure what the coffin represents.. ( Read more... )

So, everything is still a bit of a blur at the moment thanks to the pain killers..

Yesterday, Anne* who i work with and who also works with my mum came round. She had text my mum when she found out i'd been in hospital asking if there was anything we needed. I think she's from Budapest - and i'm telling you she is truly one of the nicest most kind ( Read more... )